hello Michael, thanks for posting your comment even if it's been something you have been wanting to do in the past, but decided not to, for various reasons of your own, but it's pretty brave by doing this, so thanks.
Addiction of any type becomes controlling whether that's not your intention unfortunately it makes you feel as though you to 'want to' all the time, that's why it's called being addicted, and I was no different suffering from depression, eventually it was one reason why my wife divorced me.
If you have predisposition to addiction then your doctor will have to know, because if and when you are given any medication that could form an addiction to, they will be wary of this and after awhile discontinue the medication.
Sometimes people who have this can also have OCD, I'm not suggesting that here, but it's a possibility, but the danger here is that when you are tired of the alcohol it's possible you will try and find another source that is also an addiction, that's our biggest worry.
You are right none of these will make any bad thoughts just go away, they are always there with you unless you decide to get help, so if you can remove these thoughts then these addictions aren't necessary, easy said than done, because no addiction is easy to stop, but they certainly can.
At this point I would suggest you go and talk with your doctor, they can prescribe some specific medication that will erase any desire to drink or smoke weed, it stops you wanting to, but it will only work if that's exactly what you want to do, and please don't forget to tell them of your predisposition to being addicted.
I really hope to hear back from you, there must be a million questions you want to ask. Geoff.
