I'm a 17 year old girl and i'm just coming to the end of my year 11 exams. its a relief, to say the least.
I suffered with terrible anxiety last year and thought that i had finally grasped a hold of it this year but it is proving quite the opposite. anxious thoughts are taking over me and are making me feel incredibly sad and emotional. i feel like school is a massive culprit in this.
My friends are all really nice people, but I can't help but be annoyed when they speak. I've recently become an extremely irritable person, and will avoid my friends, or avoid talking to them, just so i won't get irritated by them. This has left me feeling quite lonely, i suppose. All my friends are supportive still, its not like they have stopped talking to me. Its just i can't help being annoyed by them, even if they are saying something worthwhile.
I am constantly comparing myself to other people - especially results wise. I am a straight A student but i can never think of it as a good thing because one girl is always ahead of me. For me, it wouldn't matter if I got a 98% result if this other girl got 99%. Id still feel like a failure. I can't stop this comparison, and with comparison comes self depreciation and being upset and stressed. I compare myself to other people in lifestyle aspects, for when my friend tells me she's done some yoga or gone for a walk, just because i haven't done that i immediately see myself as lesser. Its horrible and this comparison contributes massively to my anti-socialness of late. When people talk about themselves, all i can think about is how terrible I am in comparison. comparing their best qualities to my worst.
Along with all this comes the stress of exams and assignments, and I've just been left with wanting it all to go away.
Please help me or give me some advice... i don't know how i can change my thoughts. they are overtaking me and are making me feel sad and anxious all the time.
