Hi to everyone, first up I apologise for the bad spelling and grammar. Last night was the first time I discover this online chat and I must say its a credit to all who post and answer question with some great feed back and Australia is a great place for having a site that lets normal peolpe help who have lived and breathed depression and anxiety.
Im 45 and from a rural life. I suffer from Anxiety, depression and a extremely over active mind that shrinks have laughed and said it's just you mate, bit hard to cop when looking for answers ha ha.
I would say all my life I have had anxiety and can remember from a young child chest pains that would drop me to the ground. About 3 yrs ago the Dr also said I was suffering depression and it also triggered dyslexia which when you work with measuring steel it's can be a costly excerise !!!. They put the dyslexia and depression down to been sexually abused as a child by my stepfather over 4 yrs. For over 30 yrs I dealt with what I thought was my way of dealing with it. It go so bad as no matter where I turned or on the radio there was always something about child abuse. Last year I finally went through the process with the correct authority's but it got to a stage where for myself and my family it just was so hard to deal with as reliving it step by step over and over again was not worth the trauma it had on myself every minute of the day and also the quality of life for myself, my children and partner was getting to much. After 30 yrs I had never had a sorry and in the end I finally got from the horses mouth A full apology, ( The rest is a bit complicated ) Has this improved my life, yes it has but I still deal with many demons each day and to where I am today and were I have been has been my journey and no one else's. My stuff ups, my triumphs, my life has all has been my choice. I feel depression and anxiety are caused by mostly two trigger points not really mentioned that much ( my opinion) and I personally know my two trigger points are "Love" and "Money" and the second causes so many issues and I have lost two colleagues in the last 12 months from depression and big debts and also a nearly lost my dad as well for the same thing. The biggest thing I have found is you need to take full responsibility for your actions. Life is tough and anxiety/depression it's even harder , but the key is seeing what triggers it and I have found there is always a fairly simple reason and it's normally from my actions.
Thanks
