My depression story on how I healed myself and others.
From a early age I knew that something was wrong with about the way I felt in my life and I was sad. Then came school well that lead to more reasons to want to die with school bullies. Then at age seven I found out I was adopted even my parents felt like strangers to me so more feelings of been more alone and disconnected from the world. With more feelings of self-hatred, low self worth, and low self worth. Even though I had persistent thoughts of suicide I could never do it but wanted someone else to kill me so I could leave this body and this heavy feeling of my life.
When I realized I was adopted I started to try and understand if I am Malcolm in this life where was I before this birth yes I know its sounds strange but this was my question which took me on a journey through life of seeking what was life about and wanting to feel joy and happiness.
This was part of the self-discovery journey and came across Reiki so became a master but no pain relief and still suicide thoughts had not gone away.
Then started looking at many other healing modalities over time still searching for a way of feeling good. Now in my forties I traveled the world looking for answers to my questions from meeting Gurus in India like Sai Baba to meditating in Mary Magdalene cave in the south of France to being inside pyramids of Giza. Stonehenge to traveling a cruise ship with Jerry and Esther Hicks in Mexico the search went on. Now in my fifties and had been to so many healers just wanting to feel joy and happiness but still I had to find a way to get some relief from me.
I knew I could heal myself with my hands and heart so in July 2020 I found a way to clear these depression thoughts and feelings from my mind body and soul WOW what a feeling of joy and lightness in my body I had found a way of feeling great everyday. I had become a healer and have helped other people suffering from this depression sickness. My life is wonderful now I can help other people feel good in themselves. {This a short version of my life story}
I used to say to myself
How Bad to You Want To feel Good!!!!!!
