It is AOK to be feeling This Way

[JoBo123]

Hi, just joined this Forum. Each day for me I wake up feeling it's a hurdle. Energy levels Up & Down. I tend to dream about the past and dwell in previous hurts and not get beyond it. This darned "Cloud" sits over me and I just can't seem to shake it. I'm no spring chicken so have been battling with depression for years. And I am frightened I just can't get past it. All I want to do is wake up feeling happy. Is that so hard to ask???

I'm not going to give up because Today I reached out and asked for "Help" and that is why I am here.

I think one of our biggest issues in life is if we start from a bad place and have the "Unfortunate Background" of coming from, dare I say, Not such a great/supportive background. It really makes things tough for us from the Outset. Just darned difficult.

We just repeat the same mistakes and feel soooo darned guilty for it. And that eats us up trying to improve on our past. We are not our parents, I respect that, but I really hope reaching out Today, I'm in the right place to explore moving on from these past hurts.

[blondguy]

Hi Jobo123

Welcome to the forums and good on you for creating such a great thread topic too!

I understand you about the dark cloud that hovers above us. Its been 30+ years with the same feelings and yes they hurt....a lot.

It takes a lot of courage to reach out as you have done Jobo. It took me a few weeks to summon the strength to post my own thread early last year after my depression hit me hard after being made redundant.

I also have the same 'unfortunate background' and it doesnt lay a good foundation to get through life with unfortunately.

I used to have chronic anxiety from 1983 to 1996 and it was awful (not saying that you do of course) I know the dark clouds dont last for a long time even with mega stress or depression.....seriously

This is your thread (and a good one too by the way) and it would be great if you could stick around the forums

There are many gentle people that can be here for you Jobo...You will never be judged on the forums as we are non judgemental....we do our best at making you feel at home in caring and supportive environment though 🙂

I really like you thread topic Jobo..."Its AOK to be feeling this way" Nice1!

My kindest thoughts

Paul

[demonblaster]

Hey Jo welcome & good on you you've landed at a very good place as lovely Blond said (hiya bud 🙂 ) it's non judgemental,also safe.

For different reasons I too understand the grey/Black cloud ive had untold happies & fantastic things in life happen but very hard times too the clouds always been active or hovering

I'm BP (Bipoar) Diagnosed at 46yrs i said im gunna beat it, determined to tho psychiatrist said it can't be i say cause it hasnt doesn't mean it can't. Getting there Jo, trying to understand the beast (depression) which seems to be the base to most issues i think.

I think it's within us all & to learn emotional control is one of the keys. Our reactions to thoughts are feelings (emotions) powerful but so are we.

Again well done Jo, I hope you get some answers here & reach peace in your life

All best