Dear WhatcanIdo2day~
If you have been coming and reading here in the Forum you will know already it is full of gentle caring people, many of whom have problems similar to yours. You can definitely hang out here and talk whenever you want, that will be fine.
Reading your post I guess there are a couple of problems that stand out. The first is that you yourself are not managing to cope with things and are retreating as much as you can. You are suffering what sounds like panic attacks - I've had the same - and are avoiding people thinking that there are going to be unpleasant results.
That's a horrible way to live and I'm sure life can be much better for you, that dealing with everyday issues will be less frightening and you will be able to get out and about better. I have anxiety and bouts of depression, though not OCD and would never have been able to improve to where I am today without medical help.
Can I suggest you see your GP? Go for a long appointment and tell all that has been happening to you, how you feel, about the panic attacks, sleeping, difficulties with people and everything. He may give you meds, or refer you to a physiologist or psychiatrist for therapy. That's what happened to me. It was the start that lead to great improvement later on.
With your daughter, do you know what she is doing and what is going wrong? Hopefully you and she can talk about things. Eight can be a difficult time, particularly if other children act up, or schoolwork is difficult. Perhaps talking to her teacher, or if you prefer the school councilor might help. Most school staff can be sympathetic and want to get things right for their pupils.
In your own life is there anyone at all you can talk to, parent, family member or friend? Having someone there can sometimes be pretty good, you feel less isolated.
I've probably talked enough for the moment, would you like to post back and say what you think?
Croix
