Hi Cloudy Days and welcome to the forums.
Reading your post something really jumped out at me...
The way you described your wife's response made me wonder how long you've been feeling like this?
If you read posts on the forums from people caring for a loved one with depression there is one thing that comes up frequently... You cannot make someone want to help themselves.
Often this can mean our partner can become frustrated and exhausted themselves. Do you think perhaps this could be part of why your wife isn't able to show you the level of concern you need right now? If she is asking you to seek medical care that could be a sign that she's exhausted too and not able to help right now.
On that note... Are you feeling ready to speak to a medical professional? If you are not sure where to start it can help to make a long appointment with your GP. Perhaps print out your post so if the words won't come you can use your post to start the conversation.
Sometimes people write here about being worried the doctor will just fob them off. If you wanted to you can google K10 checklist and give it a try. It is a general guide only but it might help you to see the confirmation that visiting a GP is a good idea. You can also take the results to the doctor.
The first steps reaching out for help can be intimidating but you've begun and that is fantastic to see. It is an awful feeling when you are low and start thinking you don't matter. You do matter.
Getting support may mean counselling or medication but from my experience it is well worth making the effort and learning to care for yourself. Sometimes we do need medical care to be able to get through difficult times.
A new home, children and financial problems are pretty significant pressures. It is ok not to feel great. What matters most is making sure you're doing whatever you can to find support.
Hope you return and join in some more.
Nat
