am new to this

[4godsake]

Hi never tried this before so am giving it a go. Have been depressed for a long time but keep it to myself ,has been even harder to admit it to myself let alone type on a forum..i did the signs test and am now sure i have depression officially..just wanted to try and chat about it..

[4godsake]

Hi yes i have considered a gp but don't trust doctors ...thx

[4godsake]

Thx Dory, i am a nice guy, you know the one that finishes last and carries the weight of the race..the one that's too trusting but gets kicked alot..have been very cautious for a long long time...

[4godsake]

hi stressless, like the name but so hard to practice in society..will try some of the threads when i get more confidence here..

[4godsake]

hi Startingnew ...yes i have but dont trust them,,dont trust many folks really..has been very hard for me to believe what people say..but am trying ..seems when i do it turns to disappointment .

[4godsake]

HI Cmf, thx and i'll keep trying to be visible here ..am feeling that people care and are happy to help , my kids are everything to me, keeps me going , it's the guilt of knowing the disappointment they would carry that stops me from ending my story..which just makes me more depressed and ashamed ...it's catch 22 type thing...i do have good days but eventually the emptiness inside just returns...and out comes the masks.i posted today as this morning was very tough ,haven't slept well for years so I looked for some kind of outlet..so am giving BB a try.

[Guest_128]

Hey, how you doin,

What ya been up to?

Did you tell me how old your kids are?

I saw you somewhere,might of been the circle,

Dory

[4godsake]

HI Dory

Thx..have been working..am feeling better 2day altho quite drained and tired my kids are teenagers and yeah i tried the circle but got called out to more work..will try and join in there later... read some of the posts.. loads of wonderful comments there...some helpful ..I don't feel so alone but still feel lonely if that makes sense...

[Guest_128]

Good for you,I still get very overwhelmed here trying to keep up with what's going on.

teenage kid what can I say,🙀😱😭

I will keep an eye out for you in the social threads, circle, bb cafe, just keep with it and try give info so they get to know you.

See you there and here.

Dory oh ps you have know idea how many time a day I say 4godsake!🤗🤗🤗🤗

[CMF]

Hi 4godsake,

I totally understand the loneliness. I hate the weekends and usually jump on here and hang around the BB cafe. It just sucks feeling so alone. Do you go out much at all,dating or catch up with friends? I keep to myself alot too and I'm ok with it but the weekends are hard. My last relationship left me very shut down. Don't think I will ever get out of it. I have days where I laugh and am happy, like in the circle thread this week, i laughed so much, bit outside of here i don't have much to offer anyone.

It's good to have you here and as Dory said, hope to see you around the social threads.

cmf

[Guest_128]

Better watch this one!

I am kidding,she has the biggest soul of us all.