Hi everyone. I'm Tayla and I'm 20. I've posted and replied a few times on these forums lately.
My Psychiatrist is lovely, I see him on Telehealth which is like Skype. I've never met him face to face because I'm in Regional Victoria and he's a 6 hour drive in Sydney.
There was a report from him like usual, and a referral to the local triage in the biggest local Hospital here which is 30 mins away (he puts it on my file on the website I do Telehealth with him so I can read it). Of course I've gotten the reports before, so I know the gist of things there. Him and I discussed that it could be worthwhile contacting the triage. I did this after my last session, called them up and the guy was so rude. This has been so off putting for me. My Psychiatrist told me was happy to write a referral to the triage for me, but I didn't think that he'd do it, because I thought we'd discuss this in the next session. I mean I appreciate it and I don't feel like he's gone behind my back or anything, I'm just confused.
He mentioned that I need Psychosocial Therapy (yes I spelt that correctly). I've heard of it but I don't know what it is. I looked it up but I don't understand any of it, and I've asked BB on the webchat but I also don't understand. I'm sorry for being stupid. Can someone please tell me what this is?
It sounds so scary to me, I've been crying so much today and my heart is racing and my thoughts are running around like crazy as usual. I'm honestly thinking the worst and I'm shaking from so much anxiety and fear. I don't want to be admitted to a mental hospital (if that's the correct term), and I don't want him to not see me anymore. He's never said either of those things but this is how I'm starting to feel. My GP said that he has a different plan rather than a Mental Health Care Plan. I've only seen him 4 times in total on Skype, and I first saw him in September last year, on September 16. I've never done anything stupid or attempted to do anything I just have strong urges a lot. Yes my parents know everything.
Does it mean that he still wants to work with me but he's also trying to help me with other stuff and other people? Because this is heartbreaking to me and I feel like he doesn't want to know me and see me anymore. This can't be the case right? I don't know what I'll do if it is. He's the only good therapist I've ever had and I'm thankful. I don't want to lose this.
Please help. I'm in such a dark place. I'm sorry for being dumb and whatnot.
Tayla.
