Need help coping between Psychiatrist sessions

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone, my name's Tayla and I'm 20. Relatively new to these forums. I would really appreciate if someone can please help me and give me some suggestions/advice.

I have a Psychiatrist that I'm very thankful for, he's wonderful and everything I want in a therapist. He helps me and it makes me feel a bit better and sometimes a little happier and reassured while I see him. I do this through Telehealth because I'm in Regional Victoria and he's a 6 hour drive away in Sydney, so I've never met him face to face although it's pretty much the same thing. I would like to try and meet him in person some day though, but we'll see.

However, sometimes it can be a while in between sessions because I understand his busy schedule, he also has other commitments other than his Psychiatry work. But in saying that he does his job well and does what he says. So I find it really hard to cope until I see him again.

I see my GP also but I don't find her that helpful, personally. She's nice yes but not like my Psychiatrist.

I do come on websites like this, Lifeline, etc. to do web chats, and that's why I joined these forums.

I walk daily. I colour in and play a free colour by numbers app on my iPad called Happy Colour. Sometimes I'll read or write, or watch TV or movies, depending on if I'm in the mood. Other than that I don't have much to do.

Yes I have supportive parents and it's just them, my dog and I, I have no siblings, friends or other family members. I've tried so hard to join groups, get jobs, study, anything, and I'm always discriminated against (I don't know why), even by the local triage and local Headspace Centre. So I'm out of options and quite hurt. So basically I can't get any of those.

Please help and please reply. I really wish I could contact my Psychiatrist in between sessions but I'm not sure if that's allowed and how I can.

Thanks,

Tayla.

[Guest_4643]

Hi Happy Daz.

I would suggest making your own forum post about it, because I'm sorry but I don't have any advice or suggestions. I'm struggling a lot myself, & this post I made a while ago was about that, & still is.

I'm sorry that I can't be of any more help. I'm going through my own stuff at the moment too. I apologise. I'm sorry that you're struggling & your GPs won't listen, I know that all too well.

Tayla

[Hanna3]

Hi Tayla,

Just thought I would come by and check if you are doing OK today... I hope you are all right. Furry hugs from Sam and take care dear girl xxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla sending positive thoughts your way.

Hugs,

Mark.

[Guest_4643]

Hi Hanna & Mark. I'm sorry that I'm just replying to you both now.

I'm OK, just still very depressed, scared & anxious & overthinking it all. I can't stop it.

It's going to be so awkward for me when I see him next, I'll probably just break down & cry. I wonder if he'll try to calm me down, what do you think? I mean I guess he'd have to, as much as he can on Skype anyway.

I hope you're both OK yourselves. Love & hugs to you both, & positive vibes to both of you also.

Tayla

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla, I can imagine how scared you are seeing your psychatris and especially after that letter your GP sent him.I noticed specialist dont usally take much notice of whats in those letters that the GP sends.I am sure he will make up his own mine about your progress and wont judge you harshly.

It is ok to cry in front of him and i have done it in front of my psychologist.I am sure he will try and console you make you feel better best he can on skype.The anxiety of the wait to talk to him is the worst but once you are talking to him you will be ok.

Have you started to find another GP yet.It would be good if you can find one your happy with.I travel two towns away to see mine,she is really nice and helpful.She comes back next month after being on leave so i cant wait to see her again.The other doctors arn't that helpful there but she is really good.

Living in a small town is ok,i dont mind it but i do have to travel for medical things and to the shops.We have post office and a pub and that is it.The smaller country schools have been good for my kids with special needs as they get more one on one attention.

You know your allways got people on here who care about you and will listen to you and give you advice if you need someone to talk to or pop into the cafe and grab some cake and put matchbox20 on the jukebox.

Big hugs,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Guest_4643]

Hey Mark.

I hope he doesn't hate me & judge me based off the letter from my GP. She just twisted my words in that letter & never admitted to what she's done wrong. My parents said tell my Psychiatrist then make a complaint about my GP, or see what he can do (if he can make a complaint, he just needs my consent which I'll say yes to). What do you think?

I guess he can't hate me & be rude like yelling & being abrupt & drop me as a patient because he knows how much I suffer & how hard it's been for me to get help, let alone a good therapist. I guess that would also be unprofessional & Medical Negligence & Malpractice.

I've been looking at new GPs yeah, there's a Doctors Clinic 20 mins away but they don't take new patients & they don't seem to specialise in Mental Health. There's only 1 Clinic where I live. However, there's one 30 mins away which is pretty big - a lot more Doctors, & a lot of them specialise in Mental Health. The fees are also cheaper, & they take new patients. It's 30 mins there & back but it's better than being treated like this. So I've been looking at that place, all the reviews there are great.

Even the receptionists are rude in the clinic I go to now. They don't even seem to care or help if someone passes out which has happened a few times, & some Doctors just walk past.

I'm glad you have a good GP & I hope she returns from leave soon & you can see her ASAP. At least you have a good one, I wish I did.

My Psychiatrist is the only person I trust & feel comfortable with, in terms of a therapist. I was comfortable with him & trusted him in the 1st session & I thought he's great, he still is. It takes me ages to warm up to therapists & I was scared to see him but I'm glad I did, I don't want to lose that in any way because then I'll have nobody. I don't want to be a burden to him but I feel like I already am.

Thank you for your kind words as usual, it means a lot & I'm glad you feel that way. I care about you & everyone else on the forums too. I'll do my best to support you & others here.

& yep I love Matchbox Twenty as you can tell haha. Do you know them? & Rob Thomas, the singer & a solo singer? & Tabitha's Secret, the band before MB20? They're my world. I've loved them my whole life.

Big hugs back,

Tayla

[Guest_1643]

Hi Talia, newbie here, just read over your posts. You sound like a great person.... and I admire that you can see what works and doesn't work for you. That is really hard to have to rely on the psychiatrist who is so far away. I once had skype sessions with a therapist in another country....I didn't feel i could find anyone as good in my area....you have a lot of challenges to getting help but man are you doing it, and that's amazing that you feel support from the psychiatrist. Will you see him next week? i hope it's a good session and would love to hear, only if you feel comfortable, how it goes. Good luck this week, hope it's managable and there's some good news

[Guest_4643]

Hi Sleepy21, it's Tayla not Talia but that's OK.

Welcome to the forums anyway, thanks for replying & for your kind words.

Yes I see my Psychiatrist on the 18th. I hope it will be good news too. I'll let you & others know.

Tayla

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla i am sure your psychiatrist wont take much notice of your gp's letter and just explain it to him that you are not happy with her and that you are currently looking for a new one.If you feel confident in putting in a complaint about her or getting your psychiatrist to.That wasnt good what she did to you and whole practise dosnt sound nice.I hope you can get a new one soon that your happy with.I write down notes for when i have appointments so i remember everything i need to talk about.

I have heard matchbox20.Cool band a bit different to what i listen to like 60's,70's and 80's music.

I like talking to you and the others i talk to.It's the only people that talk to me.I don't know to many people especially in this small town i live in.And your all so nice and non judgemental.

Big hugs,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Guest_4643]

Hey Mark, thanks for replying here again. I appreciate it.

I really hope my Psychiatrist doesn't take notice of the letter like you said. I'll explain the situation to him as awkward as it will be, I'll probably just cry.

Thanks for agreeing that's it's not nice what she did to me, it's nice that someone is on my side, means a lot. Yeah the whole practice is pretty bad, don't get me started, but its the only clinic in the town itself.

Thanks, I hope I can find a GP I'm happy with too, although I'm scared because of all of this.

I could give it a go writing stuff down that way I can put it next to me & remember, but I'm worried it might be triggering in some ways, but I guess I'll just force myself to write it down & discuss it with my psychiatrist.

That's awesome that you know & love Matchbox Twenty, yay! I love 70s, 80s, 90s & 2000s rock & metal also. Grown up on it & found my own bands of course.

I like talking to you & the others on the forum too, & I know how you feel, the people on the forums are the only people I talk to aswell other than my parents but that's different. I agree, the forums are non judgemental, I guess having them moderated helps in some ways.

Thanks for your kind words as usual, it means a lot. I kind of wish the 18th would hurry up so I can hopefully stop this anxiety & get reassurance & get a positive outcome.

Big hugs back, & love.

Tayla