Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[Guest_498]

Hello Monkey & Ems,
How are you both today? I know youre preparing for the bday party today. Goodluck with that but more importantly, have fun as well. It could be a HUGE distraction for you today.
Yes, I believe I have ptsd, although not yet diagnosed. But the repetive thoughts, constant crying, anxiety are all pointing that way.
Monkey, Id feel much better as soon as I can re-lodge my complaints about the organisations who harmed me. Longing for the recommendations of the royal commission and changes made to complaint processes. Id also feel better once the ppl involved are held accountable. I want to move forward with my life and see the backend of this and horrible ppl.
Mocha, where r u dear?
Blubes

[ecomama]

WHERE ARE YOU MOCHA?

Hi Blubes

Yes I was able to keep very busy downstairs cleaning up the job site lol ready for the party space.

Then I had my hairdresser's. She's the sweetest thing on earth. She actually cried today telling me something - a continuation of stuff her H is going through re his MH. Only her and I there.
But her 15yo daughter came in and we all had a great long chat. It was lovely. I've known this family for 10y now. It's so beautiful.

And it's the greatest privilege when someone has trust and faith in you that they tell you stuff they can't share with hardly anyone. Or anyone.

And they trust you. What a huge thing to be grateful for!

Brene Brown says when you're afraid something bad will happen say over and over "I'm SO grateful! I'm SO GRATEFUL!"

Then over and over again. I'm using every strategy I can to hold on through this extraordinarily difficult time.

I'm glad you got to spend time with your new flatmate. Is he actually FLAT? Americans say "apartments" not flats... what do they call flatmates over there I wonder... See using distractions tooboot.

I moved about 10 tins of brand new paint today and thought OMG I've holocaust shopped paint!
We had about 50 left by demon and I bought SO MUCH MORE... cheeses. Demon's ones have been used but I painted 3 rooms and the downstairs bathroom with some of it.

Maybe I should just PAINT and paint. IDK I'm bereft.

My poodle stayed with me ALL day, in the garden, cleaning up downstairs, even now.
He knows I'm not good.
He's only fond of being on the end of a bed lol.

I need to work out my finances. I didn't pay anything all week. Most is on auto transfer but some I was supposed to pay. I didn't.

I don't care. Not now.

Now I'm trying to soak in ALL the sounds of children laughing and playing. Yes they're 18 and playing kid's games.

I can hear my son who's leaving tomorrow. I wish I could capture his voice in a jar and open it up and hear it whenever I miss him. It would be open all the time.

I'm not doing very well.

Love EM

[Guest_498]

Lol. It was my old flatmate who I spent time with. The quiet one. New fltmate msged told me hes moving next weekend.
Good to hear kids are having a good time at party. I'm sorry to hear that one is moving out tmr. i feel for you and of course youll miss him dearly. I suppose he needs to do what he thinks is right for him. Oh Ems. Im so sorry.
Your hair must look absolutely gorgeous!! And, great that the family opened up to you and you had some time out from your issues. Yes, even though you do gardening, paint your nails. Theyll still look good!!
Naw thats so sweet "what would Blubes do"? I love that!! In my time of depression, as self care I would tots do my hair and nails!! That's what Blubes would do. Youre a darling Ems, god bless you.
Been praying hard for myself that the truth will come out and prayed for you, too these past few days. I pray that we all (good ppl of this world) find happiness and peace.
I hope your enjoying the party.
Always, Blubes. X

[ecomama]

OH OLD FLAT mate. Is he FLAT? lol.

What a sweety coming back to visit. How nice is that?
Did you have much to talk about?

Omg new flat mate moving in next weekend. WOW. It's all happening at your place.
You must look and see if he has grubby hands for the sake of your walls lol. Ugh.

I wanted to say don't hate caterpillars Blubes! They turn into butterflies! Or do you get the eeeks with them too?
Well if we were IRL friends I would scrub my hands really well and visit you.
You would NOT like to visit mine omg... yeah I'm gonna tell you.... we found FOUR Funnel Web Spider's holes in our back yard after clearing the lantana.
The good thing?
We have HEAPS of Brush turkeys and a few chickens and they EAT them lol!

And we get snakes. We have chickens, who bring rats and mice lol who bring snakes. Oh yes.
But the chickens eat baby mice erkkk. And the cat eats .... I'll stop there.

A real Circle of Life place.

I'd just visit with a dozen eggs.

The party has quietened down now. They're watching movies downstairs. I guess a few are sleeping over. All good.

LOTS for return and earn! IDK HOW I'll pay for these renos, I'll Pray on that lol!

Thankyou for your Prayers. I Pray for you and monkey and mocha and Neerja and Croix and Moon and Sleepy and everyone.

I have no idea how I'll explain son leaving to the school. So weird. It all feels surreal. Then really real. Then denial. Then emergency hand cream, perfume, then raking and mopping.
Then forums dotted throughout.

My hair looks A LOT better. My last hairdo was not me. Alexa said this one has taken 10y off me lol. I think that was a compliment?

Love EM

[monkey_magic]

Hi Bluberry,all

I also feel I need to do more because of what I've been through.
In my situation I think they know they were in the wrong so it's on all of their consciences, if they still have one. I just don't like that they will repeat what they did to me to others. I feel they'res not enough awareness out there and they unfortunately don't get investigated or brought to justice. So they repeat the process.
There's like- minded groups I've joined which has helped. People who have been victims of psychiatry.

In my dreams I get revenge, I sue them, I win but in reality I just feel unsettled when I think of being in a forced drug stupor. I suffered emotionally, psychologically, spiritually. I've had my win but I really would love to see these ppl brought to justice. I wonder how many other monkey magics are out there thinking the same thing about the same ppl and how could I possibly contact them for a class action.

One thing that makes my blood boil are lies on reports by psychiatrists. They make up so much b.s.
This has happened to me numerous times. And I know it's happened/ happening to others.

I don't want or need a sorry from them, I just want them to go hide in their dark shadows as they do and stay the hell away from me. I never gave them permission to enter my life in the first place. I was made to see them.

Dark forces over- ruled my life....but I got it back. Not in the same way but the forced drugging is no longer going to be a problem.

I went through defamation of my good character. Over and over and over.

When I showed resistance they pushed back with more of them and harder.

It got worse before it got better.

But now it's better.

I hope it gets better for you Blubes.

[monkey_magic]

Hey Ems,all,

Wow, your place sounds so lively.
Sorry to hear of all the emotional pain you are going through.

My hair job isn't what I asked for. I asked for blonde foils in my regrowth to match the rest of my hair but after washing my hair of the foils she put the toner in then some other colour and my hair colour looks dull. Ummm...no striking blonde foils just some light browny grey looking stuff. Worst hair job ever.
Luckily I wear hair extensions when out. After a few washes I think the toner will wear off a bit so hoping for the best.

10 years off you Ems what a hair job well done. Now your hairdresser knows what she's doing.

[ecomama]

Dear monkey

People who can do this to another human being..... omg they don't HAVE a conscience AT ALL.

NO ONE with a conscience could do that!!!! No one.

monkey if YOU didn't do every little thing YOU had to do, try and try again after being knocked back, use the forums, have a GOOD GP and Angelic one... a supportive mum and all the pieces of YOUR jigsaw puzzle matched with the sheer all out determination then..... you'd still be in the same position...

like I can only imagine others are stuck in because they didn't put those things together or garner or have the support you had.

It was the same for me in my MOST important Court case... fighting for 100% Care of my children. NO ONE said I could do it. Not bf, not Alexa, not my Legal team... even my Counsellor... they ALL told me to give up. OMG GIVE UP MY CHILDREN to a demon?

Never.

Give your SELF up monkey?

Never.

But I Pray for those without what we had inside us!
People less literate, people with no job, people with no English, people whose trauma had been so extreme that they are debilitated... I CRIED on the helpline about these people.

They are still victims.

We survived. I Pray we THRIVE.

Something is telling me to ask you to listen to "People of the Lie" by M.Scott Peck.
It's available to listen to for free online.
Flick past the religious stuff and HEAR those messages.
He has passed away now. He was fearful others would use his work for evil.
But he must have been THE most brilliant Psychiatrist and saw pure evil.

He actually called for future investigation into Psychiatry to scale a person between good and evil.

Anything in the wrong hands can be used against others.

I hope you can put your ruminating thoughts to some peace in your mind.
Alas I believe you will only be able to do this when you get thoroughly organised to make an attempt at Justice for yourself (and others).
This is a difficult path.
Otherwise you will have to create your own closure which is ALSO a difficult path.

Love EM

[monkey_magic]

Morning EM,

Did anyone tell you how BRILLIANT you are today?

I truely mean that.

You are able to know what goes on inside of me.

I've been learning as much as I can about the psychiatric industry so people of the lie is right up my alley. Thanks for the recommendation.

You went against the grain and won. That's strength!

[ecomama]

Thankyou monkey, being called brilliant is NOT an every day occurrence lololol, you're so sweet.

IDK if YOU will have the same reaction as I did, listening to People of the Lie but it FREED me.

I "got it"... every thing made SENSE for me of my OWN experiences of life so far.

I've always been such an optimist! Striving to find good in what appeared not to be in others and the world.

Now I don't have to lol! This book reflects EXACTLY what I've seen.

Oh man I am STILL an optimist but now only about what's within MY control.
I KNOW I am altruistic, my career, efforts with family, dear friends, even strangers are testimonies to that. Barely another one to be found lol! But they are out there and I know some, so that's a miracle lol!
THAT'S OK with me now.
I'm free to be my own self!

And wiser to see other's true natures. Finally I see that too.

I won't be hoodwinked. I call it as it is. I LOVE that about others and I like that about myself.
So that's staying lol.

I WAS called Queen of lantana last week by my gardener lol! I know how to grow healthy lantana lol and hack it down too.
I was also called a wonderful parent by my Counsellor... bringing my boy up to feel he can handle the path he's been brainwashed to follow... I say goodbye to him in an hour. He's sleeping soundly with his long time friends right now.

He will stumble and fall. I love him SO MUCH that I will always be here for him to come home to.
His multiple birth brothers are between angry to upset and mind boggled that he's leaving. Saying it's the worst thing he could do. One of his brothers is actually saving for another car between $7000 - $15000 worth. Another his first house. All in Year 11 and working every opportunity.

Son leaving will be dependent upon welfare as the family he's moving into have been for over 40 years. He'll have no job. Doesn't have his Ps, has bought a car that family is taking.

No doubt that family will try to hit me up for money. Door's shut on that one. 100%.

Son's mess to be cleared with steely focus later on I HOPE.

I'm counting down the minutes now. I'm going to ask him to weigh himself before he leaves!

Love EM

[Guest_498]

Halo all,

I stumbled upon a quote today - teaching of buddha & science.

"The world suffers a lot, not because of the violence of bad ppl but because of the silence of good ppl". Its so true, as when you don't speak up, you're complicit in my opinion. And, this gets back to the definition of what a crime is. A crime is a wrongful act. Crime is also an omission.

I will answer other threads soon, Ems and Monkey.