Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Blubs sounds like he's moving in gradually, hope that works out for you as well
He sounds interesting for sure and open to talk to. Did you feel that he was supportive and trying to make the whole move-in thing easier on you? If so thats sweet.
Guess you'll see with the girlfriend. Is she a long-term girlfriend or a new one?

I'm binging Younger on Stan which is very fluffy and fun. Lots of seasons.
Have had a few not-so-nice interactions today - i'm changing therapists and couldn't decide wether to have a final "closure" session with the old therapist. He decided for me and cancelled my appointment. Left a foul taste in my mouth. Feels a bit like being unwanted/uncared for. I saw him 21 times and here I am just a nothing to him. He sent me an email cancelling my appointment and wishing me well. *Sigh*

Have either of you seen Younger? It's about a 40 year old woman who wants to get a job in publishing and no one is inerested in her because she hasn't worked for ages and seems out of date with the latest technologies/socials. So she pretends to be 26 and is hired and also all the young people working there seem to buy that she is 26. She's so clearly not 26 but I guess you just go along with it cos it's fun. Then enter her gorgeous 26 year old love interest and the show really begins...
Very cute.!

Hope you are all well and feeling okay about new housie Blubes. Interesting times with lots of changes for you guys!

[Guest_498]

Hey beautiful sleepy,
Yeh, Id rather him move in gradually, as my ex flatmate did. It allows time to briefly familiarize yourself with the person. Every lil' convos & time spend, helps. Thats not to say that they won't change once theyre in - but it gives you a bit of incling as to what theyre like. Yes, he was trying to ease my anxiety and trying to make it easier for me. He was sweet. He made me laugh - I really appreciate that.
I havent seen Youbger, no. I havent subscribed to Stan but I wiuld love to watch it. It sounds like something I could really get into.
Why did he cancel your app't and wished you farewell just like that? Did he provide a reason? Im sorry to hear that he rudely did this to you and spoilt your day.

[Guest_498]

1 new case today awesome, awesome. I cant believe it!!! The rolling 2 weeks average is now 6.4. OMG. We're on our way to covid free State.

[ecomama]

Dear Sleepy21

The way that ex-psych handled things... it's a good thing you're moving on tbh.

I'm glad you didn't pay for another session.

All that palaver says a darned lot more about them than you Sleepy.
Remember that.
For so many psychs we are just a 'meal ticket' remember that too!

What better way do you think they should have handled it?

How are you feeling today?

I was at work today. I need a nap! Picked up Y so late last night and again tonight, I'm not getting enough sleep.

Love EM

[Guest_1643]

Hey EM,

How was work? How's it going repairing the garden and home, getting there?

I'm really glad I didn't have the final session as well - you can see a lot by the empathy they have or don't have when you are financially struggling. I guess you can see a lot about any person how they can have empathy. I was considering having a final closure session but told him that it was difficult to afford because I've finished all my MHCP.

I feel like he should've given me agency and options - like an appointment time that I could keep, cancel and afford - for my final session. But he didn't have any appointment times and he wouldn't reduce the fee by much. I agree we can be a meal ticket or a funding for their next holiday.

I haven't been sleeping very well and that's been hard. I think maybe if I clear my home of clutter I might feel less triggered - so am thinking of giving a lot of stuff away. Fresh beginnings.

Although it might be confusing that your body feels more tired these days, I think it's really understandable. Lots of extra stresses. Whenever you can get sleep I think it can be really good to take it :))

From Sleepy - the Insomniac 🙂

[Guest_1643]

Hey Blubs - sounds nice that you had that initial friendly moment with the housie. How did he make you laugh? Has he got a nice sense of humour? It's always good to have some around who can laugh and have fun.

If you ever get Stan , Younger is a lot of fun! Funny show. There is a show on Netflix now called Emily in Paris (or something like that?!) i think it's by the same creator/team. They make shows with all these powerful female characters, and great fashion.

I think the psych was just so clumsy and awkard.
I told him I didn't want to return but was considering having a final session with him.
He misunderstood and actually cancelled my final appointment and said goodbye. wished me well. So the decision was kind of made up. But it was the right decision anyway, I didn't really need a final decision. I just thought maybe closure woud be helpful. But he was a bit incompetent so he'd probably just waste my time and money in the final session. I think he was always a little bit awkward and bumbling.

It's hard affording therapy but i do need it. I'm conscious of spending money on a lazy or unhelpful therapist. Happy to pay for help but I need to feel that the person is dedicated. I guess I'm happy that I respect myself enough for this, there were definitely times when i didn't think as much about my own rights. My rights to say no, move on, and honour my feelings if something isn't right.

I hope you're doing okay today and always happy to chat. No pressure to answer but always here to listen. Any way to use this space is fine I think - whenever you need to , however often.. Once a day or once a week or month!

Good luck for tomorrow! 🙂

[Guest_498]

Heya Sleepy,
I'm always happy to chat.
Im glad youre no longer seeing the incompetent psych. I hope youre able to find one that you click with. And, one whos not so bad at their work.
Yeh hes got a nice sense of humour... He came round yeterday to move more things in and left. I was upstairs in bed and fell asleep after I ate, so we missed each other. Ill see him tonight though.
I'm going to buy myself a dongle and subscribe to netflix. This way i can watch Wntworth from the beginning.
I haven't been too well, mentally. Having to deal with the drugging, loss of everything in my life has been hard.
Its nice day today. And, this Sunday, therell be announce to reopen businesses. Yay
Hear from you soon, chick

[Guest_498]

Im an insomniac too. Terrible, isnt it?

[ecomama]

Hi luvvies

Work was extremely busy lol. I'm trying to manage stress levels there, doing okay.

Had to make an on the spot decision for my days next year so put full time.
We had a meeting after that and 90% of staff want part time which is driving our boss crazy lol.
And everyone wants Friday off lol.

We have stacks of temps and alot of them are full time. Apparently with new funding focussed on MH and wellbeing most people aren't qualified.

There's more funding for my area and a state wide push so that's going to be very interesting.

I realised the only reason I NEED to be part time is for Yvette (NOT my daughter's real name btw but I've been asked to call her "Y" so I shall :).

I've also decided to bring up other alternatives to any "education" for her next year - I'll write more on my thread about that. She came home "sick" again today by 10am. It's anxiety.

Oh the house improvements / changing rooms / garden work can only be done on my days off - if then. Usually only when I take leave tbh. It'll take many years & building the cabin will too!

How is your flattie Blubes?

How you doing Sleepy21?

Love EM

[Guest_498]

Hi gorgeous Ems,

You asked how I was .. I'm a bit better today. I went out and got meself a kebab for lunch and sat in the car to eat it. Felt somewhat strange doing that because I remembered that curfew is now lifted. I felt ok. I responded to one of your posts last night, so if you go back a page on your thread, it should tell you how I'm feeling. 🙂

Love Blubes