relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya Miss Magic ,

You make me laugh the numbers were great Loved it every second one was highlighted ...Your So Beautiful

The Wig with the cap ...Sunnies ?? look like a celeb ... rocking into work ...

Monkey you should wear a seat belt ...getting the fine is not good .. im only saying this cause i care ... could you have offered the copper a meat tray ... im being silly now ... im sorry you got a fine ...that sucks ...

Yes the day off ..looked at this unit yesterday and found it had water issues ...water getting into the roof ...so i told the agent this morning i wasn't interested .... another one is open for inspect tomorrow.. its in a great spot ... Buderim ...not walking distance from the beach ...but still a short drive ...its a nice quite spot .... anyway will check it out and let you know .... will keep ya posted mate ....

Staying positive ...good thoughts happening ...like the looking at units and staying focused on that ...its cool to check out all the ins and outs of the properties ... im looking after myself monkey ... have to let a few things go ....thoughts of other people ... making things right for others ....stuff um ....its my turn now .... hey im being strong

trying anyway ... going good ... i love the project of cleaning up a unit ...making it nice its rewarding ... the the stuff i have been thinking is just s..t anyway ... baggage baby ....let it go .... its happening slowly ....

You sound good ...your funny and writing to each other is so cool ...hook into the study get it done and finish early ...

what sort of cap did you have on ...was it black ??? pony tail ?

Have the best day Miss Monkey Magic ....

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya Miss Beautiful

Hey i want to run something by you ....so today i look at this unit and am going through all the Bizz and i ring my sister ...have a chat to her about it ....ring my mum had a chat to her about it ...and my brother .... the same

you know they all didn't even hear what i was talking about ... and im not playing a violin hear ...i just wanted someone to hear me ...its a big decision im making ...i have some friends older friends ....they are not family and they hear ever word i say they are so supportive .... i recon when you expect something thats when you get disappointed ...i didn't want anything from my family i just wanted to be heard ... you can tell when someone listens hey ..and they might listen but not hear you ....a difference ....i need people in my life that listen and hear .

i need to learn not to talk to people who wont listen ... im a slow learner monkey ...

hope your weekend is going good .... loved the numbers ...that will take a bit of topping ....thinking thinking ...xx

[awrinkle_in_time]

1. ..had my cap and rays on today ...

[monkey_magic]

hey Mr beautiful,

Might have to pop the cotton wool out of their ears. I would have thought like you too- that you would be heard because it is a major decision and ppls ears generally pop up when listening to a big decision like that- it's something exciting and interesting. Hopefully they absorb it and get back to you. A little disheartening but also great that other ppl in your life are hearing u. Congrats by the way, I'm happy 4 u.

You were spot on about the black cap and ponytail. Number 1 came up in tonights lotto and there were 10 division one winners. Number 1 comes up a fair bit. I didn't play tonight...

Still thinking about ppl hearing and listening- I suppose I've had that in my life and have had to repeat myself. I've experienced self absorbed/ self centered ppl that don't hear or listen. And are there some that are unwilling or unable to listen to/ hear others? I think some fall into that category too. There r those only interested in themselves.

U might have to assert yourself and ask; are you hearing me? Are you listening?

I'm Iooking forward to the house rules house reveal. The brief was red, gold and silver and over the top- interesting colour scheme for the inside of a house. I really like home renovations...lots of those type shows on TV...

I hope you're ok, my family isn't perfect either and I think my friends r more of the real deal...

Enjoy your sleepy music, hope u have awesome dreams..x

[awrinkle_in_time]

Well Hello ... i am lucky to have family and what they do is listen their way .. and thats okay ... they tend to miss bits and not understand fully ....i can find that frustrating ..but i know they love me ....I think doing all this stuff on my own is a little lonely ... would love to be sharing it with someone .... its all good ...big changes bring stuff out of you ...its healthy ....Have been climbing Mt Coolum ...the days are so nice ... I put an offer in on the unit ....way below their asking price ...will see what happens ...it is good others are listing ..

So you had a weekend off the lotto ...i have always had luck with number 1 ... hope you win soon ... The Reno shows are good ...you get to see all the modern stuff thats come out ... They are easy watching hey ... there is one from America ...i think the guy in it is called Chuck ... they do up houses for people ...the transformations are amazing ....

Had the sleepy music going full bore ha ha ...had the speaker hooked up ..its pretty loud .. im so sleepy when i wake up ...my entire body is so relaxed its ridiculous ....i need coffee to get me started in the day ... no dreams that i can remember ...Have you got a day planned or just kickin around ...my friend has invited me out for brekky..i will have get a triple shot expresso as soon as i get there other wise i will fall asleep at the table ...ha ha ... i can tend to take things to extreme ...most normal people would listen to a little sleepy music ....not me i have found one that goes for 10 hrs ....To The Max Mate ...

Have a great Sunday ...are you going to church ? ... Hope what ever you do is perfect ...have a good week .. get that assignment finished and in for marking ...Hey a walk along the beach might be nice ....might do that today ...Catch Ya On The Flip Side Buddy ... xo

[monkey_magic]

Heya,

No church 4 me, & lately been kicking back at home watching TV. I'm tempted to play the oz lotto tonight but its a bit expensive. I've put two 50 row entries in for sat's 20 million- I hope I win too. How's everything going?Haven't been to church for 3 months which isn't too bad. Many would disagree but that's fine with me.

I think I've seen that American reno show, well i know I've watched them before.

Not much to report. Ull b right mate. Look forward to your latest news 🙂

Cheerio x the rains r out.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Morning ,

Your getting lots of rain on the roof ...we are getting cold weather the wind is sooo chilly ...have had the heater on every night ..its so nice , maybe i have it turned up to high ..i fall asleep cause its so warm ...

the offers on the units they did not except still looking ...all is good ....something will pop up ...doesn't matter when, just need all the numbers to work out ...get the Biz right mate ... I was in a IGA store yesterday and saw the 20 million sat night lotto and thought of you ... i was thinking of getting a ticket ...was standing in line thinking and the lady says YES you ready ..i said ok coming as i put my few things down....and i lost the moment ...so i didn't get one ..your going to win anyway ....20 million ...good luck ...I just asked about church , you said one time you went and it was nice ....im the same go every now and again .....been a long time for me ...it is nice when i go ..you have to want to go and cant force it ... Ull b right mate ....Im the same not much going on just a stayin warm ...went out for dinner last night ...wore my ski jacket and a hat ...NY cap ..and everyone laughed at all the clothes i had on ...then everyone was saying how cold they were ...i was like a piece of toast ...i was so warm ... my friend is going through a divorce and all the money stuff is being split up ...he is going a bit crazy ...he has like 3 girl friends ...so funny ...might keep my distance for a while ...to much to explain ...divorce is hard ...im so glad im past that Monkey ... i see my life and wow im free ....he is fighting ...and angry ...which is all part of it ..he knows im hear for him ...

hey got some good mouth wash the other day ... are you laughing ...anyway its a gum cleaning one ...its taken nearly all my skin off my gums ...i suppose fresh stuff will grow back ....well i hope it does ...anyway gums feel good ... fresh and clean ... have been doing the gym and climbing mt coolum ...feel pretty strong ...boy i ate a lot yesterday ..good food just couldn't fill up ..ive been into the soup ...i recon its an easy snack ...

hope all is good your end and your enjoying the rain on the roof ...im typing with one hand not using capitals ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

have a lovely rest of the week ...enjoy all that is ...show every one your beautiful smile ...and dont forget to win the lotto very important ...better go get a coffee happening ... and get ready for my work day ... im going to wear lots of clothes today ... its so cold ...
xxoo

[awrinkle_in_time]

had to split into 2 parts ...wouldnt send otherwise ...

later x

[monkey_magic]

Morning,

Your friend is lucky to have u as u have been there done that ( divorce) and am sure will have some wisdom & understanding to share 🙂 lucky friend.

So your gums fell off, r u sure u dont want to return that mouthwash haha. Some of them r very strong aren't they.

I Iike having your positive energy behind me with this lotto thing. It actually would be important if I won. I want to give to the homeless, publish books etc. I'd do lots of good deeds plus set up my future. And it would mean freedom at its best....yay..And just so u know I have two more entries, so now I'm playing 200 rows. I just choose numbers and buy online. And I gave into oz lotto. Luckily I won div6 twice so I almost got my money back, but no big wins. I prob have gambling fever, but I'm also sensible. See it as an opportunity of a lifetime.

So you've been dressing up to keep warm like toast. Good idea in this chilly weather. What a contrast compared to how hot it was. BTW I also have a new York ( NY ) cap, its black. I think you were referring to that by the NY initials. That's the won I wear on top of my wig making it look more like natural hair.

Been doing housework this morning lucky me.

Going to have another coffee and finish doing the dishes. Have work on today too.

Big smiles like u said haha...Oooo have the door open and felt some of that chilly wind. Ppl at the snow fields will be happy. 🙂 Cheerio x