relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya , Just got your message now ... must have been delayed ... thats not cool but its okay ...Hey i love that you passed assignment ... if i lived next door i would bring over a bottle of moscato ...Just kidding ... and the mental health thing being out of the way is huge ...you wont know your self ... Bloody Ripper is all i can say ....

I finished off the last episode of home land ...was good ...was one of those series that filled in time when you feel like C... I did my house work this morning .. did the laundry and went to the gym ...did heaps it was great ....i came home and made salmon and veg for lunch ...getting back to the old ways ... eating clean is something i have to do ....the pizza was nice but when i eat well i feel great ... in moderation i know ... i haven't have a drink since i came home from skiing ...we just 2 glasses of red one night out for tea ....i feel good for it and dont miss it ...just goin with that one ...some afternoons after work i love a cold beer ... just one or two ...

I just sat down and put the feet up and found a series on IVIEW (ABC) ...its called Harrow ... ill give it a go ...might make a cuppa tea and chill for a bit ...am driving to Bris later for dinner with my son ...that should good ...

Well monkey have a great rest of the day and a great week ...keep me posted with what happens in your next appointment ...cant wait to hear your happy words ... xoxo

[monkey_magic]

Well aren't you just amazeballs!!!!

Eating Baileys ice cream listening to latina music at this cafe...after all this having my workout.

Got to love a nicely cooked salmon. It's really good that you are healthy and don't drown your sorrows in alcho like lots of men do...

It's such a beautiful sunny day, just sat in the sun to pick up some Vit D's...

Brissy was my city...lived a walk from there. I used to catch the ferry a lot at night- loved the night lights....

[awrinkle_in_time]

are amazeballs a bit like rum ball ... We had an ice cream after tea from a nice shop in west end ...

we had a ride in a huge ferrous wheel ...lights did look good

Good Night

[monkey_magic]

Haha you can have some amazeballs with your rumballs if u like 🙂

Oh the huge ferris wheel n lights that brings me back...

And the floods.

I saw so many places when I lived in Queensland....and did so many different things...I used to do that long walk by the river.....

Another working week for you... I mix up my week with work n study so I do both...booked in to work 3 days this week...I get to choose how many days love it that way....better get back to study...the subject is work with diverse people...

Hope you had a good time with your son 🙂

Night

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi ... Had a good night ...thank you ...

Bris is a nice city, we walked around south bank it was really alive people everywhere brought back lots of memories cause that where we used to meet every weekend ....i was actually good , i hadn't been back since we split ...i reflected back and i didn't feel sad ...i have been good today ...not getting sad ...i wont say that it has passed but at the moment its good ...

your week is all sorted ...thats good... keep it so you can manage it without to much stress ...good on ya ... i do the same ...im lucky i can in my job ... I bet you get 100% for your assignment ...thats an easy subject for you ... dont tell them that though 🙂 ...

I worked in the Bris Floods we spent lots of time down there ...We worked getting the power back on to peoples houses ... it was so nice to be a part of helping so many people ...everyone got together and got stuck in ... we got lots of free Mac Donalds coffees 🙂 🙂 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Have a great week ...Lovey Lady ... Thanks xo

[monkey_magic]

Love that community spirit of helping when times are hard and kudos to you for being apart of it. I'll never forget the days of the floods when I lived in Queensland- ever. It was huge.

It's really good that you are progressing in your grief too. South bank- that brings back memories....I used to walk around there a lot and spend time in the pool...I even jogged around that area...I esp remember the harri christioners beating drums and singing around brissy...I can rem it all now....oh and the yaught I slept in on the river...and Morton bay...the islands- oh yeh, the fishing, etc.

I'm ahead in my studies and finished a shift at work. Also went for a long walk- feeling satisfied...

You live close to so many amazing islands and water spots 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Night Monkey ..

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi ..I recon Qld is a pretty good place to live i am from Vic and have settled into the Qld life ....whenever you go away some where and come home thats when you appreciate ...Every time i come home and have a swim and enjoy the weather ...It sounds like you enjoyed Bris .. lots of good memories ....my brother had a camping weekend on Morton ...we snorkeled ...then we found out later that the water we were in was full of sharks ...not good ...i went on my own one morning and got this weird feeling in the water and pretty much didn't go in again ....other than that it was awesome ....we climbed a big sand dune and ran down it well rolled down it ...walking from the barg to the camp ground was hell with all our stuff .... probably stay in the resort next time ha ha ... I went to the psychologist today it was great got a lot out of it ...still have the thoughts now and then but the emotion is not there ...thank god ...thank god ....well better not speak to soon ...ill just keep going slow ...but defiantly on the up and up ... And hows you ahead in the assignment and doing a shift making money ... and i liked that you said your satisfied ...Kudos back at ya ... I was with a man today for work and he had early stages of parkinson's disease ...he told me all about it ...he starts his medication tomorrow and will be out of action for a few days ....will continue on new page

[awrinkle_in_time]

and you know he cant change that ...My mum always said if you have your health you have everything ....i listened to that for years and .....well didn't really listen .... i hear it now and its so true .. if you have your physical and mental heath in order the best you can you have it all ... i have always been physicaly healthy but mentally i have not done the work ... i am aware of that now and im like a sponge when i see the shrink lady .... I Just love it monkey !!!! feeling strong and in control ...

Never really been into fishing ...went on a charter boat once for a mates bucks party ...we caught lots of fish and a guy on board re-baited your hook ...filleted the fish and got us another beer ...i didn't even move just stood at the side of the boat holding the fishing rod ... that probably not fishing hey ....and it was out of Noosa ... thinking about it now it was a pretty good day ..ha ha ha ... just telling ya stuff ...

Am watching the series Harrow on Iview ... its pretty good im getting right into it ....

The Hari Krishnas restraurants are pretty good ... nice food ...made with love ...i looked the spelling up on google ... 🙂 🙂 ... Good Night