relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

Life's a beach, and then sand comes & smacks u in the face~ heard that one today.

I hope u did end up going to the bbbbbb..beeeaaaaccchhh. I'll b at the pools tomorrow- just around the corner. I've been inspired by Tiffany hall lately- she was a biggest loser trainer- I just love her. Hope to have a bod like hers one day too..

Balanced up sounds great Simon ( still not sure if that's your real name but been calling u simon) Exercise makes u feel soooo good.

The baby birds chirp away but I don't hear them downstairs where the TV is so just upstairs. Chirp chirp....I hope u r having an excellent weekend.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , No i haven't heard that one today ... yes the old sand bag hits ya ... i know that one .. Beach day tomorrow ..i think i might do some floating ..just on my back ..close my eyes and just float ... i will have to hold air in my lungs otherwise ill sink ..wash it all away ... she been on my mind .. feels like she hear with me ...bloody hell .. Tiffany Hall is awesome ... a good role model ...she looks great ... healthy fit strong .. falling asleep now ..Goodnight .. my name is Simon .

[monkey_magic]

It was meant to read I heard that one today...& yes she's still on your mind, takes time. She's still with you...I think that can be a positive for now & stay tall while she's still with you.

I hope you feel better tomorrow after the float, or swim, without her with you, just you and the ocean and the refreshing air~ a change of feeling... Or if she's still with u maybe you could leave her there in the ocean when u return to shore. It's a bummer of a feeling but your strength will guide you through this one. Your strong and resilient as you've come quite a distance without her. You've lost her but other things will find you, or you will find them. Enjoy the sun and the sea and what is meant to be will be. Sorry for your grief x 🙂 x

[awrinkle_in_time]

Thank you monkey ... xx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi,

Had a angry day today...I have a can't care less attude ..did some house duties and had a nap ..I went to a Christmas breakfast which was nice .. ..Im just angry at her .. Anyway can't ge the flow to start writing ..must be sleep time ...Hope your well and your weekend was nice ...keep up the swimming and exercise this week you should be looking like Tiff by Wednesday .. Thanks for being hear monkey ..it means so much ..Sleep well ...Night x

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya Monkey

Hows it goin ...Hope your well and staying on top of things ... Ive been a bit all over the shop..hanging in there... but finding this time of year a challange... i have a bit of time off work which i will enjoy ..

not much to say ...Just thinking of ya 🙂 xx

[monkey_magic]

Hi simon,

I'm just cruising along... Doing a lot of shopping, thinking about what I'll do in the year ahead...Christmas seems to be a challenge for a lot of people. You'll still have loved ones around you ( im assuming your kids) so that will be a bonus. Only 3 days until Chrissy. Shops are packed.

Have u kept up with the gym? I haven't been for a few days. I better not let the lazy bug bite then it's all over. I've been doing some shopping on line~ quite liking it.

How are matters of the heart?

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , yes my son and i will be spending christmas day together he lives with me we will eat some yummy food and have a few swims ..you are brave going to the shops ..its crazy ..yes people are funny i saw a lady running around the supermarket this afternoon ..literally running up and down the aisles ..trolly over flowing with food .. Yes been keeping up the gym 3 times a week ..mon wed Friday ..will have a rest over the holidays will just walk ...might do a few mt coolums climbs ..gets the heart going ..dont let the lazy bug bite its to far back ...just a little bit now and again 🙂 ... The matters of the heart are entering another phase .. feeling stronger ..still miss her but the knowing its not right is getting stronger .. and thats up and down as well ... to answer your question ...im not sure how the matters of the heart are 🙂 Glad your enjoying shopping and your getting lots of goodies spoil yourself ..i bought some Tim Tams today ..

[monkey_magic]

" The matters of the heart r entering another phase...feeling stronger...still miss her but the knowing it's not right is getting stronger."

That makes me happy- you, getting stronger within yourself...

By the sounds of things you bravely went to the shops too! I can relate to that woman with the overflowing trolley as I've done that before lol.

I also might go beach. Been invited to a friends beach house so could be swimming as well.

Again love this time of year! Have a blessed happy Christmas!!!

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , have been out doing the bloke thing all the gifts with hrs to spare .. Yes it is a nice time of year ..

Enjoy tomorrow !! eat and drink heaps .. Merry Christmas Monkey xx