relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

Long post I wrote being held up ATM...

U will break my bones by hugging me hard easy mate haha ur not that strong...u better not be. Love hard hugs though...

In my long post I think I wrote some confusing things..made sense to me though...

Lotto sucks...

G'nite...here's to strength and wholeness.... With ya

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Okay i will look forward to the read ...your telling me that you wrote some confusing stuff ...what about what i right ...ha ha ...

Bl.... Lotto ... we don't need money ....

Good Night Friend .. Strength and Wholeness Back At Ya ..

[monkey_magic]

It looks like I've shed tears...just listened to James blunt- goodbye my lover with lyrics- YouTube....

It got me...

I highly recommend u taking all of that one in....can u do it please? And let me know if u cried.

Going to listen to it again.

It's such a positive experience shedding and walking into the light of a new beginning...

I've been in many relationships, lots of short term ones too- we go our separate ways- it hurts it does...it takes time but u do grow...

Going through the death of a lover- I changed from that and grew the most.....

There's a part in James blunts song that reminded me of something from our convos- do u know what it is? I'm YouTubing now...

[awrinkle_in_time]

okay will listen now

shedding and walking into the light of a new beginning ...wow

[monkey_magic]

" I still hold your hand in mine"- that lyric- it jumped out at me. Thought ud be sound asleep. How did u go with the song?

[awrinkle_in_time]

1. And love is blind and that i knew when, my heart was blinded by you.
2. is that what you were thinking
3. would love you to tell me your thoughts
4. cried big time ...
5. its so late ...a strong but gentle hug

[awrinkle_in_time]

I loved the song , and i love holding hands with you ... don't let go will ya ...i think we agreed on rest of the week ...

i cant sleep

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Night ...

Your a beautiful soul , have a peaceful sleep ...

xxx

[monkey_magic]

A best friend used to say that to me a lot:-) u intrigue me u do- love ur words- love the place where ur words come from. It's nearly 3am I'm still awake, had a bit of chocolate n nuts. My long post is still held up. Ull be happy,I'm lying in my bed, last night was the couch again. I can sleep anywhere really- and have slept in many different places- have u ever slept in a bathtub?

Hoping ur in dream land..

Chao bello

Keep taking care of you.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good morning , your probably sound asleep in your bed which is good 🙂 Ive made you a coffee , (cyber coffee stays hot for ever) Enjoy it when you wake ...it was made with love ....coffee, water and milk ha ha

No i have never slept in a bathtub ...water in or out ? ...i might have slept in a warm bath ...for a minute or two ...

You have your hike to look forward to this week ....don't drive that distance if your too tired ....( just caring )

Im tired today ...feel like ive been up all night ...feel a bit more balanced today ...ive been observing lots in myself ...not quite sure how to put it into words yet ...will let the space be today and see what comes ....you will be the first to hear my thoughts ...

Ill wait your long post ...i love your moments of writing from your heart ...look forward to reading it , i know you care ...Monkey ...

We will be meeting in Paris next ...saw a movie the other night ....set in Paris ...the place of LlLlLlLOoOoOoVvVvVvEeEeEeEe

Better get to work ...

will alway try to look after myself ...i have a standard and try to stick to it .....its up and down at times ...

better go brush my teeth... Ive done my exercises ... I don't want to go ...want to talk all day ...Have a Wonderful Day ...

xxOOO