It's coming back

[RunGirl]

Hi....this is my first post. I've always fought the black dog. Recently I beat a plethora hurdles and bad situations.....near death experience, two months in hospital, 7 surgeries, prescription pill addiction, isolation living overseas, increasingly abusive relationship, PTSD. I RAN, I resettled in Aus, i got work, I found myself in love again...I was happy and energetic. But It's coming back. I read somewhere when you don't want to get out of bed, you know you're getting bad again. I have a beautiful new partner. I'm just so tired all the time. I've put on weight which he likes but I can't forget the words of disgust from my ex when I wasn't stick thin. I need some perspective and support guys

[RunGirl]

skull wound, not smell wound.....yeeeesh!!!

[Croix]

I'm much the same except my placard says "Inspiration"
-C

[RunGirl]

Hello people

I wonder if anyone has any words of advice; I seem to be on a downward spiral despite my truly best efforts. I know I CANNOT work yet die to my extreme fatigue and lack of concentration (post sepsis symptoms and PTSD but I am going out of my mind waking up to groundhog day every day. I am struggling to get the meds i need because my psych and GP both went on holiday for three weeks almost at the same time and nobody else will prescribe them, and although they are both back now the backlog of needy patients means I cannot see my psych til May 25 .... now I'm halving doses to try not to go into withdrawal because I can't get the meds elsewhere. My anxiety is on high alert and my depression is really scary bad. Lifeline suggested I need to apply for disability benefits for a period of time but how do I get the required signatures when I can't get in to my doctors? My finances are are draining and I'm panicking. Thanks for listening.

RunGirl

[Croix]

Dear RunGirl~

It's a right pain when both providers wander off on their holidays, particularly if they have not calculated the span of scripts. All I can suggest is email each with the date when the meds will be used up and ask for an interim measure. My apologies if you have done this already.

Frankly it does not seem like an ideal time to front Centerlink who are not famous for being helpful. You will need a medical advocate so why not leave things until your life is more on track?

You've mentioned a partner more than once, if he is still around I'd not think he would refuse to help if bills start to pile up.

Bunny's smell wound had me in stitches - bunny too I guess.

Now is a good time for canine therapy

Croix

[RunGirl]

Hi Croix,

Yes P has offered help and has already footed a big bill for me, but I HATE doing that. I was only once dependent on a man and that turned out pretty badly. I do pay him rent and grocery money if he buys stuff, which he does more than me, and just discovered I've got myself 6 weeks ahead on rent by miscalculating dates so that can kind of ease things up. It's the meds I have to sort out next.

[RunGirl]

Hi Croix

In some ways I think Waiting for Godot was sort of ABOUT waiting for inspiration....but excusing oneself from going out and finding it because it was "sure to come" in the form of something that would lead, advise, direct you etc.....and just to say to people, "yes I'm going somewhere, I just have to wait for....."

RG

[Croix]

Dear RG~

It's a bit like a sunset, every time you view it something different becomes apparent.

Mind you, as Estragon says: "Nothing happens" 🙂

-C

[RunGirl]

My new job prospects...teaching this stuff to older teens and adults

RG

[Croix]

Dear RG~

I've only taught technical subjects which are very focused on a syllabus, with just about everything except the methods of instruction prescribed.

I would imagine that teaching literature, drama and related arts is a little different - correct me if I'm wrong -particularly to those with a measure of adult experience. There one's own personal store of views, ideas and reading which one has amassed in one's life can be employed. While you are fretting over not being able to work at the moment I'd think you can still continue to build up that pool of thought and knowledge - and enjoy doing it. You teaching will be richer as a result.

Croix

[RunGirl]

Croix et all....

Just to let you know I am head down bum up pushing through issues. My mother's communication got nastier not better after I attempted to extend an olive branch. I am coming to terms with it. Croix I miss teaching so much but am still on medical leave due to post Sepsis and PTSD. I use my time to plan my drama courses starting from next year. i've pinned down a venue. Thank you so much everyone. I'll be back on here I'm sure. God/Allah/Buddha/Jehovah/The Universe.. Bless you all