I can't find the right place for me to post

[Moonstruck]

I don't know any more where to put a new thread if I make one, or which ones to join in. I always used Anxiety because that is my major condition but that has been relatively under control lately - I feel Depressed today - but I don't qualify for the topics there either. I'm depressed mainly because there doesn't seem a place for me. I love some of the threads and personal thoughts for example in Staying Well, but I can't join in there, because I don't have any tips for Staying Well.

I tend to have almost paranoid thoughts through over-thinking "problems" that I would like to talk over but don't know where to talk them over before they reach the paranoid stage...I want to avoid that. I join in the Social threads saying light hearted jokey things because thats the only place I seem to belong.

I dwell on any problems my adult sons have in various aspects of their life and want to "fix things for them" - our relationship is very loving and close though - they are wonderful to me - so there is no real "problem" with my relationship with them....so I don't seem to belong in the "relationships, family" section either do I?

I worry about them all the time - when I tried to express this on forum I think it was misconstrued that I had "empty nest syndrome" - trying to adapt to my sons' leaving home....No, that's not it...they've been gone for years and years...I am a grandmother.

I liked the Getting to Know You, or is it Me? thread very much - but have been given suggestions how to start my own thread and what section to use etc and get the feeling I'm being steered away from there too.

So I am still confused. I don't feel particularly anxious today, so this shouldn't even be in Anxiety! Do you see my dilemma?

In fact the more I write the more I feel like crying - I don't know where to go next.

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

That sounds terrible. I hope you can do as Quirky suggests and see a doctor as that might speed recovery. I'm a bit worried that you will not have anyone to give you a hand with the shopping and domestic chores.

I bet Mr Gump had not considered "Crunchy Frog", "Ram's Bladder Cup" , "Cockroach Cluster", "Anthrax Ripple" and "Spring Surprise". All specialties of the Whizzo Chocolate Company

Wishing you well (and don't be tempted by any of the above, as Superintendent Parrot found they can have unfortunate consequences.)

Croix

[mmMekitty]

Dear Moon

That fall sounds so bad. How are you now? I hope you didn't break anything. & will recover soon.

If I am out on my own, I am so grateful to have a mobile phone, so, unless I'm unconscious, I could all for an ambulance myself. That doesn't have much effect against a fear I have about falling over & really hurting myself, but it does mean I don't necessarily need someone to come & help me, (hopefully).

My minor fall a few years ago, outside my PDr's place, was fortunate in that he was there & helped me so much. I can't help but think how scary it was for you to be alone after falling like this.

Are you able to get anyone to come & help you in your home?

Hugzies

mmMekitty

[Moonstruck]

Well....thanks for your concern.  I can only describe it as looking very strange, or maybe it's not, I will keep an eye on the area.  I have to say I am not in any real pain at all, except top of my ribcage which is wearing off...its 5 days now...my knee and leg aren't very painful at all.  I can walk around fine.....but almost the whole leg from above the knee to ankle is "black" from a distance in a mirror I look as though I have a black stocking on, or someone has used body paint....just not looking like a usual "bruise".  I assumed it would just fade as days go by. I can do all my usual things thank goodness.  But its certainly not pretty.  thanks for caring....xx

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

If you felt you had 'just come out of a boxing ring' you certainly have had a richer life than me. I can only claim to have been kicked by a horse, and that was only on the leg.

I'm very glad you are mobile, I was worried about that and doing the normal everyday things like cooking.  As for the bruise, it sounds spectacular. I hope it disappears soon.

I'm afraid you may have taken Mr Wilde's quote " Be always searching for new sensations" too seriously

Croix

[mmMekitty]

Hi Moon, & everyone

I am relieved you are not in so much pain, not reporting broken bits, but , that leg - sounds like it ought to hurt like ... It's a wonder to me, anyway.

Thanks for the update.

Hugzies

mmMekitty

[Doolhof]

Hi Moon and to all reading,

Hope you are healing okay Moon. Has all of the bruising gone now or is some of the colour still there? Falling can be quite problematic in so many ways, getting up can be an issue let alone the injury itself.

I used to work in Vacation Care and looked after a very active boy with additional needs. One time we were on a bus trip, even though he was sitting near the window, he somehow managed to climb over the top of me and rush out the bus door as soon as the bust driver opened it. As I tried to scramble to catch up with him, other kids behind me tried to push me out the way and I fell out of the bus with kids climbing over the top of me!

I had a few bruises but none as spectacular as yours sounded to be. Once again, I hope you are recovering okay. Cheerio form Dools

[quirkywords]

Moon

i hope your leg has improved in last week and you are feeling better and your pain has lessened. I always n enjoy the quotes you post and your delight in language. Take care quirky. 

[Moonstruck]

Hello all....I will try and make this quick....its unbelievable the dramas that occurred one after the other, but all true. Leg got blacker, foot and ankle got more swollen. only one shoe would fit on. Older sister who had heart attack a year ago had a fall too, in hospital 2 weeks, deciding what to do, who would look after etc....her when she got out.  

son and little boy visited that week...my car broke down....son had to drive me to medical appointments.   People kept suggesting I at least show my GP the leg....she immediately ordered emergency ultra sound, x rays as looked like blood clot, blood poisoning, even the word "gangrene" entered my mind as blackness progressed to my toes...aaargh!   Nearly 2 weeks and no fading of bruises.    Son had marriage breakdown first mediation session awaiting him when he got back......tried to have as good a time for him as possible....hard to do with no car, pain, visiting sister, talking to her medical team, { they did not know I was in worse pain that she was, dear old thing}  borrowed crutches and stick from neighbour to help me with walking pain.....Old age and the physical pain that comes with it is terminal.   It is not going to get better,improve or a cure found. I have no wish to go to that place.   My older sister hates it too and wishes it to be "over" asap.  I can understand that too.

[quirkywords]

Moon what a challenging time you have had.

Are you getting help from your doctor. 

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear sweet Moon,

I am very sorry that you’re going through so much pain, trauma and heartbreak…I am so happy that you have been to the Dr. and she acted quickly…I hope so much that your Dr can start helping your leg to heal…

Old age…yeah, tell me about it…Is it a curse or a blessing?…both I think..I just scraped through 7 months of intense pain with 2 frozen shoulders…the thought of not wanting to continue crossed my mind several times…Shoulder problems, Hip problems, heart disease, bursitis etc…I’m a walking ticking time bomb…and it’s hard, really hard to know that I’ll never be that young healthy girl again…and at anytime something might go wrong with my heart…but I have accepted that…and hope in the future that I will remain strong enough to continue to accept it….I nearly couldn’t about a month ago…

Old age can also be blessing, we have been through so much…we have knowledge to share, support we can share to those who are starting their own challenges in life and maybe also with their mental health or being their for those that feel lonely, whether they are family or friends or strangers here on the forums….We have children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren that love us and need us in their lives…sometimes to guide them or, sometimes, to be that shoulder they need to cry on when things go wrong in their lives….we are their parents, grandparents, great grandparents, sister, or friend…who else will they have….if we give up or stop ourselves from getting old? 

Moon, sweet lady, you have touched so many people’s lives throughout your own life…that your not aware of….lives that have been made better and happier by just being your beautiful self….While you’ve been going through intense pain, you threw that pain aside to help your beautiful sister…..you have a lot of love inside you,  that you give to others, please Moon, can you try to give yourself some of that love?…..You so very much deserve it…

Sending you some very gentle hugs sweetheart…🤗🌈🦋🌹.

Grandy..