I can't find the right place for me to post

[Moonstruck]

I don't know any more where to put a new thread if I make one, or which ones to join in. I always used Anxiety because that is my major condition but that has been relatively under control lately - I feel Depressed today - but I don't qualify for the topics there either. I'm depressed mainly because there doesn't seem a place for me. I love some of the threads and personal thoughts for example in Staying Well, but I can't join in there, because I don't have any tips for Staying Well.

I tend to have almost paranoid thoughts through over-thinking "problems" that I would like to talk over but don't know where to talk them over before they reach the paranoid stage...I want to avoid that. I join in the Social threads saying light hearted jokey things because thats the only place I seem to belong.

I dwell on any problems my adult sons have in various aspects of their life and want to "fix things for them" - our relationship is very loving and close though - they are wonderful to me - so there is no real "problem" with my relationship with them....so I don't seem to belong in the "relationships, family" section either do I?

I worry about them all the time - when I tried to express this on forum I think it was misconstrued that I had "empty nest syndrome" - trying to adapt to my sons' leaving home....No, that's not it...they've been gone for years and years...I am a grandmother.

I liked the Getting to Know You, or is it Me? thread very much - but have been given suggestions how to start my own thread and what section to use etc and get the feeling I'm being steered away from there too.

So I am still confused. I don't feel particularly anxious today, so this shouldn't even be in Anxiety! Do you see my dilemma?

In fact the more I write the more I feel like crying - I don't know where to go next.

[Guest_3712]

Hi Moonstruck

i just happened across this thread and was dismayed that u felt unwelcome on another thread

I would like to catch up on your thread here and remind you how very welcome you are in our circle

It wouldn't be the same without your beautiful moon beams shiny down in us

Be kind to yourself

Stressless

[Guest_3712]

Hi Croix

So glad to hear things have been resolved for you and you are making your way back

Ive missed your input of late but tend to forget that everyone here has their own issues

So keep on keeping on

Be kind to yourself

Stressless

[Moonstruck]

Ah Stressless...yes I feel good in your circle.

Realised just before I do have a tendency to be quite hard on myself. Berating myself, blaming myself for shortcomings...things I would never say or do to a friend who was in trouble, and feeling low...so why do I do it to myself?

Pepper - course I don't mind. There is no actual topic here - and your input and lovely personality are coming through just as they are....

was wondering, has anyone on here had a really convincing paranormal, supernatural type experience? something that may give evidence that there actually is something or someone "out there"......sometimes, like the past few weeks and still now....I am clinging onto the hope that there is some meaning to all the pain, rejection, grief, turmoil, illness, cruelty, and heartlessness that fills our existence....I am looking for signs. Have you had any signs? or shudder....dare I ask, "Is this all there is??"

[Guest_3712]

hi Moonstruck,

You will hear people on here all the time saying how we can offer all kinds of advice and suggestions to others but cant seem to do same for ourselves. Same as how we treat ourselves as opposed to how we treat others- If we can work this out, then how to fix it we could be on the way to having a healthier relationship with ourselves and others

Be kind to yourself

Stressless

[CMF]

Hi Moon,

Not sure if you consider this as 'something else out there' but when my dad was ill he was given 2 weeks to live, which i was not aware of. I have a magnolia tree in my front garden that never flowers properly. One morning i walked out and it was full of beautiful white flowers, i had never seen it like this. One week later my dad passed away. I also have reception problems with channel 10 on my tv, usually if it rains. There was a period where I could not get reception, even when the weather was good. Every afternoon/evening for a few weeks the reception would cut out, no signal. The day my dad died, i came home that evening and put the tv on. I licked through the channels and what do you know - channel 10 working beautifully. It remained this way for a few weeks, now i have the old problem of no reception when it rains. My little one's dad had an uncle who passed away several years ago. There was a bit of a rift in the family with him. The day of the funeral they were talking about him and suddenly a picture fell from the wall. When my brother in law died my sister found her sensor light at the front of her house playing up. It kept flickering. My nephew is a sparky, he checked everything and all seemed fine, globe was fine, wiring was fine. It stopped flickering soon after.

[Moonstruck]

Thank you for that CMF....I hope you are right. These things never seem to happen to me which is strange, because I am not a sceptic..I am very open to it all.....I also like your new "pic/image"....will be in touch soon.

much love, Moon S xo

[Peppermintbach]

Hi Moon,

Thanks for the supportive words 🙂

I don't think that I've had any supernatural/paranormal experiences so don't have any stories to share. To be honest, I would probably get really freaked out if anything unexplainable happen.

Is this all there is?

Big question there. You sound like you need hope/meaning/something. Searching for a "reason" maybe...

Kind thoughts,

Pepper

[Croix]

Dear Moon~

I've no idea if this is supernatural, my wife and I like to think maybe it is.

My first wife passed away a fair number of years ago and I remarried. When my new wife came to live with me she felt almost an intruder coming into the house where I'd lived for so very many years with another.

Natural I guess, as also would be a temptation to feel judged or compared.

The first day she arrived we noticed a white bird. While I'm not going to say what species I will say it was so rare as to be highly improbable. This bird remained in the trees around the house for my wife's first week. By then she felt less like a trespasser, more at home. We were outside and noticed the bird fly away. We did not see it - or any other - ever again in 20+ years.

We both felt it was a sign of welcome and approval.

A quote - how about

There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, Than are dreamt of ... (not O.W. 🙂

Stressless Ta for thinking of me, I'm climbing back up.

Croix

[Moonstruck]

Thanks for the story Croix, certainly seems like a definite sign to me..beautiful!.

perhaps things like this do happen to me, and I don't notice them! They probably have and at the time I've thought.."hey look at that...that's a sign if ever there was one"....then life intervenes and I tend to forget any of the beauty...get caught up in my "pity party".

If you can stand another quote, to follow your "meaning of life..is this all there is" one.....

- here's one from old Billy....."Life is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying ....nothing!"

Have a good day and thanks for being there.....

[Guest_3712]

Hi Moonstruck,

I've had many 'supernatural' - mostly of people who have passed .

1/ At 15 my best friends sister died suddenly . My friend was very upset and asked me to stay that night. I slept in her sisters bed. About midnight the curtain began fluttered although window shut. The temp dropped to freezing and a photo of the two sisters fell off the table.

2/ My husband and I were on a camping trip around Australia. One night we were staying with some friends in a remote farmhouse in WA. We had a lovely home- cooked meal and retired early.Our room was an authentic early 1900's bedroom complete with four poster bed. A couple of hours later the room grew noticeably colder.I woke up looking for another blanket.

Out of the corner of my eye I could see hubby sitting up in bed staring straight ahead. I started to speak and he shushed me and pointed straight ahead. At the end of our bed were 2 identical girls of about 11 years old. Dressed in the old fashioned night dresses, complete with night caps. Black hair hanging in braids, pale skin and big dark eyes just staring at us. Funnily enough we weren't scared then- shock set in later.

Next morning we told our hosts who looked knowingly at each other, and then told us the story of the family who had lived there, some 90 years before. Two of the four children were twin girls who died of TB aged 12. They then showed us some pictures they had sourced themselves after they moved in and yep, the two girls we saw were the girls in the pictures, in nightdresses and caps!

3/ This one is special. My gorgeous mother- in -law passed away some 16 yrs ago now. She was everything to me, and I loved her like I couldn't love my own. We shared a house as she got older. She had numerous cancers but always rallied. One day my kids came home to find her on the floor with a broken hip. Long story short, they went to operate and found she was riddled with more cancer- in operable. For two weeks she was unconscious. The day before Mothers Day she woke up like nothing happened, and we were all able to say goodbye. The next day was my sons birthday. She waited and died the day after.

The night after the funeral she came to me in a dream. Not as she was but as she had been as a young woman in war torn London. I had never seen photos of her at this age , but after I told sister-in law weeks later she posted me a pic of mum in exact outfit and place as my dream.

Stressless