I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.
Hi Sarah,i hope the coffee helps you.I dont drink coffee.I am just anxious about having the kids this weekend.My anxiety has been real bad of late though its always has been.
Its stopped raining here and the sun is out.The place is looking realy green now.
I dont know if i ever will stop crying maby this is as good as i will get.It probably stems back to being a child and being bullied and i use to come home crying from school then i would get bullied by my brother just because i was different.
Hey Mark
Thank you
so much for thinking of me and you probably have noticed by my obvious absence
that I have been going through some mess…I have had another suicide in my life
and just managing that as it has dragged up a few emotions for me. In saying that I am probably going to take a
week or two off the forum just to regroup and focus on me for a bit. Just wanted to let you know Mark and I will
be back before you know it. I am doing
ok but just wanted to let you know that I am just taking a rest.
Be back
soon enough so take care and chat soon
Your friend
Sarah
Its been a long road i have traveled from being different to everyone else to being bullied in school because of this,to being scared and to physical sick to go to school,to watching both parents pass away from cancer,to wanting to get married and become a father when i was to scared to speak to girls to a miracle happen when i was 30 and did the impossible.I reflect on every thing and i am still here even though still crying i still go on some how every day.
As time goes by the harder it seems to get.I wish i could have done things differently.She didn't understand my anxiety and wish i could have explained it better.The sorrow is real and so are the tears.
Thank you for your kind words of support to me and I hope that you are feeling ok today. I can see from some of your posts that you are going through some sad days lately and really missing your dear friend.
I can also see you have updated your pic to that really gorgeous flower, wow!
Great to chat and be back on board and hope to hear from you soon Mark.
