Dear Lilly18~
I"d like to give you a warm welcome back. Remembering your past posts life has not been good to you, and despite treatment would be hard for anyone to cope with.
I'm guessing that the problem is alcohol due to what you said in the past. Please accept my apologies if I've made the wrong assumption.
Whatever the issue it sounds like you are unhappy for it to continue, and that is a pretty good place to start from. You recognize there is a problem and want to stop. That's more than many people can do.
Even if it is an illicit substance or overuse of prescription medication the facts remain the same, it takes assistance to give up. I don't know your circumstances but would suggest you talk it over with your GP who should be able to tell you the next step.
If face to face is too much at hte moment oyu can call our councilors on our 24/7 help line, who should be able to make recommendations.
If you would like to come back and say how you get on that would be great
Croix
