I don’t want to fall back down the dark hole again

[LostInMyThoughts]

lately I’ve been feeling like I’m starting to fall back down that dark hole again. I haven’t been there in a long time. It started with the small thoughts just those little ones to make you feel a bit worthless, makes you question yourself, your worth, your purpose. Then it started to get a bit darker and I started having thoughts about how life would be better without me, other people wouldn’t care if I wasn’t around. Those sorts of dark thoughts that can really weaken your mindset. I’ve been trying so hard to just remind myself that they’re not true and maybe I’m just over tired from work or maybe I’m just bored with how my life is right now but I have things to look forward to in the coming months I just need to be patient, I’m going to graduate soon I’m going to start a new career next year. I shouldn’t believe these thoughts but I’m also so so scared that I’m just trying to convince my self everything is okay, like sugar coating when really I’m just ignoring the beginning warning signs that I might be falling back into depression.

please if anyone has any way I can try and fight these thoughts to help me stay strong and to not let it progress any further then please provide me some insight or advice. I don’t want to fall back down that dark hole, I’ve been winning this battle for 2 years now and I’ve come so far.

Thankyou.

[smallwolf]

Hi,

Welcome to beyond blue.

From your post you were able to get through it once and now it is coming back again. Can you remember any of the distraction and coping tools that helped you last time.

However you also asked for some ideas -

Have a look at virtual hope box. It is a phone app with a number of useful tools. It was recommended to me by my psychologist.

A boom to read is the happiness trap. It is a small book jammed pack with ideas you can try. You might be able to get it from your local library.

When I get those dark thoughts I try to catch myself and use the voice of Homer Simpson. Might not work for you, but it was a trick from that book I mentioned above.

Do you have anyone you talk to? Friend or family? This is also something I find good for myself.

Tim

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi LostInMyThoughts,

Thank you for your post. I'm so glad that you're here and it sounds like perhaps you have started to identify that this is a warning sign - I know these thoughts definitely have a sense of hopelessness and worthlessness to it and I'm sorry that you're struggling with them again.

You said in your post that you've been winning this battle for 2 years - what's helped you win? What's gotten you through in the past?

The other thing I thought I'd add is that there's a difference between fighting the thoughts and letting them win. Maybe everything is not okay right now, but maybe that's okay too. Just because you're having these unpleasant thoughts doesn't mean you have to give into them, but it doesn't mean you have to push them away either. If you've gotten through this before, then it just reinforces your resilience and makes me know that you will get through this again.

RT