Hi, like most people posting on here my life is in the pits. I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety around 10 years ago.
Since then, I’ve seen around 8 different psychologists, 2 psychiatrists, and have been on 7 different medications.
After getting all the tools and knowledge I need to understand my illness and what healthy ways of thinking look like, why can’t I change?
Little, insignificant things annoy the hell out of me in an unhealthy way. I am a sad, negative person to be around. I’m moody and angry at the world. I know all of this and I am disgusted in myself, yet despite all of that I can’t change.
I’m stuck being this sad, miserable person. I see happy people all of the time and I would do anything to be like them and to see things in a different light.
All I see is the darkness and I’m about to lose my wife and kids because they don’t want to live like I do.
What does it take to truly change? Taking a medication or seeing a psychologist to tell me what depression is for the 20th time isn’t working.
Has anyone else been at this point where nothing works after so long? What did you do?
