Hi On The Road
It's interesting when different parts of us come to life. There are times where I've felt this as being thoroughly confusing and even overwhelming. I've found sometimes a part of me will come to life only under extreme circumstances. It's like I may have tolerated a particular behaviour from someone for years, even decades. It can take years before I hit the brink and spill over into complete intolerance. In such a situation, I can meet with 'the ranting maniac' in myself, being left to wonder where she came from. Then, afterwards, the people pleaser in me pops up saying 'I can't believe you did that. That was horrible, what you did, what you said to that person'. At the end of the day, I think there's a sage in all of us, there to help us make some sense of things. If you can channel them, they may sound a little like 'You've been so incredibly tolerant for so long. You've tried so hard, over and over, to communicate how upsetting and even depressing that person's behaviour is. Have they ever listened? Did you just get their full attention?'.
I think it sometimes becomes a matter of what part of myself am I channeling at any given time. I read a brilliant book that touches on this. 'Insanely Gifted - Turn Your Demons Into Creative Rocket Fuel', by Jamie Catto, is both a fascinating and educational read. He's a great author, in my opinion, with a great sense of humor. He's someone who struggled with severe anxiety and depression in his teens, so he can relate to the non rosy side of life. The book explores our multi faceted nature and addresses how to access and use a lot of the facets or parts of yourself to your advantage. As he says, all parts of us exist for good reason. Sometimes, what exists for good reason can become a problem at times, such as 'the people pleaser' part of our self.
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