Hi I have clinical depression and anxiety, I'm on a disability allowance. I'm 56. I come from emotionally abusive relationships. I have 4 children,one still at home. It looks like I'm doing great. I have a passion for needlework and quilting and I am blessed to have all the stuff I need to create. This sounds ridiculous I know. Sometimes I am frozen still with the knowing that other people are out there earning a living and I'm not. I've been called a bludger by x partner for this and it sticks. I teach my skills at the local shop and I have lots to do but the guilt makes everything unenjoyable. Even when I'm doing things I love I am thinking negative thoughts continuously and it seems like I have to push myself to do even fun things. I all sounds like crap and when I'm well I can see the sillyness of it all. This is a major problem for me. Mostly feeling very useless and unworthy. Does anyone else feel like this?
