don't want to take meds, lost

[bluebalu86]

Hi guys

I don't want to be on medication but if my depression is endogenous. then there seems to be no other way. I read that therapy doesn't help with endogenous depression. How do I figure out exactly what's wrong with me? I have depression, a lot of anxiety, panic attacks, agoraphobia and obsessive thoughts. I'm so scared of all of these things that are happening to me and have little to no trust in doctors and their pills. I don't want to be sick with this illness forever.

[NicoleP]

I understand that u r concerned about meds. But if u had diabetes you'd take insulin and you would treat high blood pressure with meds so why not for your mental health? Just a thought. I know it's scary but what have u got to lose?

Kezza

[geoff]

dear Bluebalu, thanks for posting a comment as sometimes it's so hard to know what to do, so much advice, so many ideas from different psych's, so it becomes so confusing.

At the moment you have said that you have ' a lot of anxiety, panic attacks, agoraphobia and obsessive thoughts', so hell this is a lot to handle, because your obsessive thoughts are so powerful that not only do you need medication, but also cognitive therapy, because it's taking over your life.

What I would do is to click under 'get support' at the the top of this page and go through the list of doctors and perhaps ring them up, to see which doctors specialise in mainly OCD, or you could ring BB on the number above , or perhaps have a talk to them on web chat to find out where doctors who handle this illness are, because once OCD takes over then you are stuck into the rountine that it forces upon us.

I would dearly love to hear back from you, but I am about to log out, and won't see your reply until tomorrow morning from about 12.01 am. Geoff.

[bluebalu86]

It's not the same as diabetes and high blood pressure because those you can measure. And you can't measure the supposed "chemical imbalance", they don't even know what the standard for "balance" is. It's just hypotheses and trial and error. I'm so sick of that. If meds helped I'd take them, but they don't and I still have to take them. I don't want to be sick and medicated forever. 

Thanks geoff I can't ring any of those doctors as I live on the other side of the globe. 

[Julieeb]

I know how you feel about the medications. I  sensitive to medications and had some crappy reactions to the first lot of anti depressants they had me on and now only two weeks into my second lot and still had some side effects so it is scarey and yes you do loose abit of faith in meds and drs I totally feel that way at times to. I suffer depression and anxiety and only recently diagnosed. I would say to give theeds a go. They did tell me it's like an art work finding the right meds to match the person but I think - even though I am not there yet at all - they have helped me abit as I can now go back to work after 3.5 weeks off. I still get low and down and that but I recon give the meds a try and you can always stop them if you can't stand it but if they make you feel better then you will never look back. All the best.