Hi there. I completely understand where you're coming from. Developing a trusting relationship with a doctor takes time and courage and is definitely not a walk in the park. I go to a GP who has his own very small practice with his wife, and have been for a very long time. Ill be devestated when he decides to retire. Same thing with my psych! When anxiety kicks in, they've both been understanding and supportive.
i also understand your concern of being judged when getting scripts filled. I used to feel the same, but not so much now. I think I was ashamed at having to take medication, but now I'm so grateful it works for me. I also find it easier now to be more open about having an anxiety disorder. I don't announce it to the world, but I'm more comfortable to talk about it now if need be. So far, I haven't come across anyone who has a problem with it.
I hope you soon find a doctor you trust who will work closely with your psychologist. In the meantime, be gentle on yourself. You are much,much more important than what you think others may think of you. When you get you scripts filled, hold your head up high and say thank you with a big friendly smile. We never know what's going on in someone else's life and a warm friendly smile could be just what they need. It's almost as good as a hug!
Take care and let us know how you go Thursday.
