Spiralling down again

[Kits]

Hi my names Kits and I've had anxiety/panic attacks since I was 15 (2000). For the most part I'd learned to control it and enjoy life. But over the years big emotional experiences seem to trigger my anxiety. For instance my partner dumped me (2016) and I was waking up each morning to an attack and found it difficult to function. I worked afternoon shift at the time so had time in the morning to process my thoughts better and try to get into the right mindset for work. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn't. But I managed to move on and now I'm happily married and life is better. Until now....we had to put our 14yr old cat and 15yr old dog down in the space of about two weeks apart and we were devastated. So of course, anxiety decided to kick in and I feel like I'm 15 again. I'm now at a different job that requires me to get up at 4.30 in the morning, which is definitely not helping my attacks, I have no time to process and become frozen in fear. I realised I needed help and have spoken to my boss but I fear there's only so many absent days before they have had enough, which is fair, I like to consider myself reliable but at the moment I feel like I've let everyone down. I can't get into a psychologist until July so what am I meant to do till then? Tell my boss ill see you in a month? My partner is worried about me and I feel like a shit wife because I'm adding to the stress and I'm not working. I don't know what to do. I asked my boss about switching to afternoon shift to see if it might help ease it but with my attendance record it probly wont be accepted. I don't feel normal and I hate it, I feel so ashamed that I'm not strong enough to handle the simple task of going to work everyday. Thanks for taking the time to read this. I needed to let it out somewhere.

[Petal22]

Hi Kits,

Wellcome to our forums.

Im sorry you are feeling this way I understand it’s really hard but you will overcome this stage in your life just hang in there.

Its not your fault this has happened anxiety is hard to deal with and it’s something that happens inside our bodies at no fault of our own.

Have you ever been taught any coping strategies for anxiety?

I’m sorry for the loss of your cat and dog I understand this would have felt heartbreaking.

You could go to your gp and discuss how you are currently feeling, they may be able to help with some suggestions .

Have you ever tried meditation or mindfulness? Meditation and mindfulness are great for anxiety .

Deep slow breathing is also helpful.

You can always call our friendly councillors… 1300 22 4636 .

Hang in there things will get better.

[StevenK]

First lovey, society is geared negatively, sometimes we are raised in a negative enviroment, and so we end up carrying around baggage. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Intact very successful person has suffered too.

here is the issue, we are scared to feel the feelings of anxiety, so we run around trying to avoid fight or push away anxiety, and this just creates more of it.

Anxiety is caused from obsessive thinking negative. Our brain follows the mind, so when we think and worry about a certain issue, the body creates cortisol, a stress hormone,

when that happens we loose our ability to function correctly. The brain thinks there’s a tiger trying to kill us.

with anxiety the trick is to do less and work on the solutions to our fears and insecurities.

When you face your feelings without suppressing them, then they are able to pass,

panic attacks are caused when we ignore the signals from our soul, basically it happens when the brain goes, I’ve had it, either you acknowledge me or I’ll bring you to your knees by flooding you with destructive chemical and stress response.

read the power of now and new earth by eckhart tolle, best stuff for anxiety depression ect

we Have to work on our internal world first. Life is just a reflection of our life and thought pattern.

start journaling either by hand or pc. It helps us with clarity and self reflection

something is causing this, so your going to have to treat the root cause, not the symptoms.

depression and anxiety are a story, you are not depression or anxiety, it’s a story that we are telling ourselves

most people have suppressed so much negative emotions without feeling them first. When you suppress then they come back up in the future.

sometimes we are raised in Bad enviroments, and so we navigate the world in a negative way

However we can change. We are not set in stone. And you will grow from hardship, it makes us Deeper,

so yes read those books along with the untethered soul by Michael singer. Re read them multiple times

keep on keeping on, life’s 10% what happens and 90% how we react.

we have attracted our current circumstances with the thinking we have, if we work on our self talk and thinking, then we change everything in life

[Sophia16]

Hi Kits,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums and thank you for letting everything out. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for support so you should be proud of yourself. You should not be ashamed of having a mental health disorder, it is normal and it is not your fault.

You must be going through a very difficult time. You have been very strong throughout your whole journey.

Have you ever considered creating a coping plan? It can help you in the meantime since you are waiting on a psychologist appointment.

Stay safe and i am always here to chat.