Hello Moving mimz (and wave to Croix)
I hope you don't mind me jumping into the conversation. I have not read all your thread, just some but I can see you have the same difficulty as me when I get anxious. When I first became depressed I was quite unwell and had lots of panic attacks, which is what I think you are experiencing. After a while they stopped as I started to get well again. You can imagine how upset I was when these attacks started again recently.
Before I make you nervous I will explain. I see Croix has commented about anxiety being an normal part of life and unfortunately this true. I have been going through a stressful time ironically over something that I am looking forward too. I am having a new kitchen put in as a treat for myself. The plans were going well when COVID happened and my family suggested I put off the kitchen for a while rather than expose myself to this illness. I am at risk a bit because I am an older person and have a medical condition which would not go well with getting the virus.
However everything is now in full swing and this is where the anxiety cropped up. I was simply stressing about packing up my kitchen and the dining room in readiness for the kitchen to be dismantled and the new one plus new flooring installed. I should be happy and excited and I am but I am also nervous about coping with everything boxed up, if I will like the kitchen when it is installed and many other similar things. Long story but I thought it may help to reassure you that anxiety happens in our lives and it goes away again. I felt nauseous, lack of appetite, fast heart rate and generally not knowing what to do with myself.
So take heart. Anxiety happens and when you can see it does not stay forever, as you have said above, it becomes easier to cope. Take meds if they help. There's nothing wrong with that. No need to tell anyone you are taking meds because it is no one's business except yours.
I hope my rather long explanation has helped you.
Mary
