Just needed to vent

[OllieB]

So I'm having a bit of a bad week I haven't built up the courage to leave my house this week and of course avoiding stuff doesn't actually fix it and makes me feel worse. The worst part is I still don't understand why, how or when this became a reality for me. I don't know I just needed somewhere to put this in words
thanks for being there guys, ollieB

[YellowPoppy]

Hey Ollie

Sorry you're having a shit week. I'm really struggling with doing small normal things that I've been able to do before, I'm getting better but I still struggle and that leaves me feeling ashamed and guilty.

Hope posting here has helped you and I'm happy to read whatever you write and respond as best I can

YP

[OllieB]

Thanks for your reply, I'm sorry to hear you are struggling, I totally get feeling ashamed and guilty and those feeling on top of sorting through anxiety are very overwhelming.

I just feel stuck In a cycle like I do something I get anxious or I avoid something I get anxious then I feel guilty and anxious about being anxious. Just not in a great place right now and I just want to break the cycle to have a day where I don't have worry about what's going to happen, where I could just relax and not have all this nervous energy weighing me down.

Thank again for your support

[Ruby__2]

Hey Ollie,

I am here if you just need to vent.We are all annononomous here not the best speller lolxx

[YellowPoppy]

Hey,

I can relate to wanting just one normal day. Hell. I'd be happy to have one thing be normal and to not be questioning or doubting everything constantly.

My emotions are so volatile that I tend to end up shutting down and that leaves me miserable.

Its as if my brain can't process anything positive which means I'm always feeling so negative.

Anxious about feeling anxious is definitely something I could do without.

Hope your day is beeter than the last!

YP

[Ruby__2]

Hey Ollie b,

I get that you feel anxious. Have you tried distraction?Go for a walk, appreciate the sights and sounds!

Say hello to a random person.Smile it is contagious, I too have a background of anxiety/depression.With the help of my Dr who referred me to a psychologist I am in a better place.Reach out,see your Gp.Help is available .Be brave,you cannot do this alone.Here if you need to express/talk.

You can do this!

Ruby 2

[OllieB]

Sorry I didn't mean to leave it this long I appreciate your reply I do use walking as a way to unwind and quite enjoy it. I don't have the confidence to say hello to strangers unfortunately I struggle talking to people I know. I am trying to be brave and seek help but there is this voice that stops me at the moment (probs from so bad experiences in reaching out and the fact it makes it all real) trying to push through that. I'm glad your in a better place now and good on you for being so brave, hopefully I can be too, just baby steps at the moment.

[Ruby__2]

Hey,Ollie

Good to hear from you. You nailed it with baby steps!

I was and still find myself like you.I try to stop beating up on myself by accounting for my day. Such as:Did I get out of bed?Tick.Did I shower?Did I eat?Tick,tick.If I didn't achieve these things,that's ok I will try one more thing tomorrow.

Regarding confidence saying hello or smiling at others-I find that just smiling can improve my my mood(although at first I felt like the neighborhood weirdo!!)Try it,you have nothing to lose,especially if you don't know people.People do respond to a smile or hello.Makes me feel good regardless.

Baby steps,whatever you are comfortable with.

Best thoughts,

Ruby