Im really scared about starting a new job. Have i made a terrible mistake?

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Best wishes s to everyone.   I m feeling really terrified at the moment . I did an induction at a new workplace yesterday and i found it so intimidating. I felt like crying and walking out. ive spoken before about not being happy and wanting to change jobs. IM just so scared about what ive done now .  I just want to be happy again ive worked hard all my life im 56 but im starting to feel tired. I m tired from this constant battle of anxiety and depression. Im not sure about where im headed at the moment and im really scared.  I was wondering has anyone felt so lost with things at times. Im really scared at the moment.   My best wiahes to everyone.        Brett 

[Petal22]

That’s ok Brett. 😊

Well done for doing your course it sounds great.

Brett, have you thought about having a chat to your gp about the way you are currently feeling?

Im sorry you are feeling overwhelmed I understand this feeling can be hard to deal with.

Try to speak positively to yourself.

Instead of saying you are afraid I made a mistake say I made the right decision I am worthy of this change.

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Thanks Again Petal.

Im feeling a bit sad this .   I was hoping to go out for lunch with my former girlfriend now just friend..   I havent heard from her so i guess she has decided not too.  I just feel really disappointed as i was there for her so much recently when she needed me.   I just feel so lonely when this happens.  I dont wat to ring again as i dont want to become a nuisance or over bearing.    I have my GP tomorrow .The last we spoke he even mentioned about a dissability pension . Ill discuss things tomorrow again.   I feel so dissapointed with my ex  why can people just be compassionate and caring of others,   Like we are here .     Best wishes               Brett.

[Petal22]

Hi Brett,

I understand your disappointment but Brett I believe the right people are out there for you the ones who want to be there for you and support you.

Maybe this person isn’t that person for you ….. when you find that person they will want to support you and be in your circle maybe the right people for you are some friends you already have? Or about to meet.

Let the people go who you have to work so hard to keep in your circle…. It shouldn’t be so hard…….

All the best with your gp Brett, how do you feel about the disability pension? 
Is this something your ready for? Or do you still have that fire burning within? 

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Thank you again Petal.        You are right the people who want to be in my life will always find a way. It shouldnt be hard.  Im scared about the disability pension and even the thought of dealing with centrelink .I really dont know where to turn at the moment.    I have an appt with my GP this morning hopefully a talk with him will settle me a bit. I do still have some fire burning in me to fight and work but at the same time im very mentally burnt out by my life of anxiety and depression.    Thank you so much for your replies it means so much to hear from you and others here.   All the people here are champions in there own right.     Brett

[Petal22]

That’s ok Brett.

All the best with your gp appointment.

I understand it’s hard when we feel burnt out by our anxiety and depression.

You could speak to your gp about medication that could help you if you want to?

Thank you for your kind words to us.

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Heya Brett,

Sorry to hear about what happened to you with your friend. You certainly sound like a caring person, and it hurts when that care and support is not reciprocated by the one who means a lot to you. Even though it's been awhile already, but my mind likes to take me back to my past relationship, and make me question the same thing as what you're going thru with your friend as well. While I no longer speak to my former partner (and have been since last year), but I know it is for the best for both of us.

I feel perhaps your former partner may have unresolved feelings and thoughts about you, that she is unable to meet up with you. Likewise I feel you may have unresolved feelings as well, and meeting up with her may bring up some awkward thoughts or feelings. The best kind of love we can give to someone, is not the kind where we shower them with gifts and attention, but rather the ones where we can let them go freely, and let them seek out what makes them happy. Take this opportunity to focus your efforts on yourself first.

Hope your talk with your GP goes well Brett!

JT

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Thanks JT   Yeh my doctor appt went ok ,  Hes a good Dr he has made ongoing appts over the next few weeks for me.  I think your right i do need to let my partner go as hard as it is in times like this. Maybe she is just scared ill become to reliant im not sure.   Sometimes im not even sure just how much she cared about me as she would never say or let me tell her how i felt.   Ill try and be the best person i can for the time being.      Brett.

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 I hope every one had a good weekend.     I feel a bit guilty i guess being a Monday and not working.  My mental health just doesnt feel up to it yet and i guess i dont need to apologise for that .  I also have appts that i need to attend to.  I hope to have a good week. Sometimes i just get a bit scared with the unknown in my life.     Brett

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 A bit stressed today. Found work a bit long after a late start. Just hope i can stay on top of things.