dear Kelvin, well I can truly understand what you have said and how you are feeling, as the days seem to get longer with no much we have achieved or interested in doing.
I also had my own business as a builder/handyman with 6 months of work in front of me but when the final crunch came, I was unable to do anything, and had to throw everything away and just stop working.
I had people ringing me and leaving a message on my answer machine wanting to know where I was and why I didn't turn up to do their job, and at that stage I was also taking antidepressants (AD) which weren't doing anything and seeing my psychologist twice a week, thankfully that was a long time ago.
Firstly when you feel miserable which leads to depression, you won't be able to achieve anything worthwhile, because you physically can't, especially if your business is struggling, but this could be only because you're not well.
It's an enormous decision to close the doors of your business, unless someone can take over or the business or to be sold, but again this depends on your financial situation.
My wife was working and I was able to get a DSP pension, but that was back in '97, and now the government are making it so much harder, but then every case is a different one to deal with when applying.
You must go back to your doctor and tell him/her that the AD aren't working, inwhich case they will be changed to another brand, because it's useless taking something that's not doing anything.
Also ask them about the 'mental health plan' where you can get 10 free visits to see a psychologist, and depending on how busy they are, there maybe a waiting time.
What your father said to you is easier said than done, but it doesn't work like that with depression, because it just makes you uninterested, unmotivated and really don't give a damn.
Hope to hear back from you. Geoff.
