Hello! So,
this is my first ever post here, and I kind of feel nervous posting my feelings
as I’m not someone who commutates on the net. Okay, so about me; normally I
never thought of myself having Anxiety, I mean I’ve been worried and stressed
about things before. But with everything that’s been going on, I feel like my
world has been turned upside-down.
I work in Retail
(in a shop that refused to shut down, though it was non-essential) as well as
live with two high-riskers, so this had added a whole new level of risk to me.
It’s to the point now the very thought of going into work/social places makes
it hard to breathe. I shake, I break down and basically consumed by terror at
the idea I could get the virus and potentially cause the deaths of the people I
love. It got so bad I lied to work to take time off, but now they aren’t giving
me many options and want me to work because we’re super busy again. But I can
now barely sleep or eat at the thought of going back.
I’ve tried
going outside and “slowly” get back to normal, but the moment someone gets
close to me I panic. One time I had to quickly run to my car to stop myself hyperventilating.
Ironically, a Sales assistant who loved making someone’s day is now terrified
of the pubic…
It’s made me
wonder how are you guys dealing with this? What things are you doing to calm
down or help in this weird and difficult time? Or whether I’m just
over-freaking out about everything.
