Hi

[Yurchenko]

I'm new to the forum and am struggling with anxiety atm.

Just started a new job - not sure I can manage almost full time hours as I've never worked full time before due to health. I'm highly anxious over the thought of it all. Currently on anxiety medication and as of today the Dr has increased my dose, I've organised a mental health plan but the symptoms of anxiety are crippling me at the moment.

I've made a total work change - loved my old job but boss was crazy so I had to get out. Now working for a large company which has it's positives but after falling ill and ending up in hospital (after just 1 shift) I can tell I'm not going to get any help in reducing hrs etc.

I was told at job interview it would be minimum 24hrs a week but more likely 30ish which is great however it's 37-37.5hr so far.

I know it takes time to settle in and I really do want to give it a chance but the physical symptoms are not helping me!

I'm also on medication for gastritis (inflamed stomach lining) which is causing side effects including fatigue.

I can't not work - it's only me with a mortgage to pay. I had 3months between jobs trying to find work so used up a fair bit of my savings.

[BballJ]

Hi Yurchenko,

Firstly, welcome to the forums.

I know all too well the feelings of crippling anxiety and how the physical symptoms take over and make everything very tough and also make any pre-existing illnesses even worse with your heightened sensitivity.

I firstly think it was a good move to move jobs, if you clash with your boss, it is not a good thing and you need to find a workplace that you enjoy going too. This new place sounds good, are you sure there are no options to speak about reduced hours? In this pandemic climate I feel most companies would not want to overwork their staff especially if they feel ill. I know it is easier to say than do as you are new but maybe it is an option.

Regarding the actual anxiety - have you ever spoken to your doctor about this or a professional who you can work with to try work out where the anxiety stems from? That is my other recommendation because whilst anxiety is tough, you can overcome it but it takes work and dedication to getting better.

Please, post back as much as you like, we are always happy to talk.

My best for you,

Jay

[Sophia16]

Hi Yurchenko,

Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums and thank you for sharing your story. It seems like you are confused. on what to do.

You are very strong for stepping out of your comfort zone and going to your first shift. Anxiety is so difficult to deal with sometimes. It can really affect our lives.

Maybe let the boss know that you do struggle with anxiety and that you were hospitalised because of it. I am sure they will go easy on you at the beginning and hopefully, they understand.

After a while, you will get used to the environment and people. Which will help ease your anxiety.

Stay safe I am always here to chat.