Hi all,
Ive read through the guidelines but please forgive me if im posting in the wrong place.
Ive been battling anxiety since childhood but was only diagnosed a few years ago, im now nearing my mid 30s. Ive also been diagnosed with OCD stemming from intrusive thoughts, which has spiraled me into a deep depression.
Ive recently had to quit my job and move back in with my parents since I was self medicating via substance abuse. Ive since seen a new psychiatrist and been put onto a new medication which has had me feeling worse, and been referred to a psychologist, though it will be 6 weeks before my appointment.
I guess Im just incredibly scared. Im tired of having intrusive thoughts and my biggest fear is of "losing control". Currently im basically non functional and virtually bedridden. Friends and family have encouraged me to keep. busy and exercise, though just getting out of bed in a struggle, let alone going to the gym.
Time feels like its moving at a snails pace and I feel worthless. I dont really know where im going with this, I just feel alone and like my experiences are unique. I have the utmost respect for the people here who suffer from depression and can still function, I dont know how you do it when I can barely leave my room. Waiting to feel just a little bit better is making me feel worse, if that makes sense.
Any help or advice is appreciated.
