Hey Chloe!
Sorry to hear you're not feeling well. I am also tackling anxiety and depression without any medication and I know it's hard. I've often felt like things are getting worse, but I often find that it's my mind playing tricks on me. I think our constant hope/expectation to start feeling better often makes it seem like we are feeling worse when we actually aren't. I like to think back when I'm feeling what I think is "worse than ever" and I often can look back a couple of weeks and realise I've felt the same back then, and I made it through that.
When I am feeling my worst, I force myself to keep busy, cleaning, exercise, engaging activities like sport or games help to clear my head a bit and take your mind off my worries for a while. Even a long hot shower helps me sometimes, or listening to music.
I had a pretty horrid day yesterday. I was struggling already and on top of that I got some really bad news which pretty much instantly sent my anxiety into overdrive. it led to a panic attack that night so I didn't really sleep and today I am exhausted. But I know things will improve one way or another. Our minds are pretty amazing organs, it might take a year. It might take 5, but I believe my mind will adapt and learn to control these feelings eventually. As long as I train it to accept anxiety and depression and think positively no matter how bad things get.
Just remember you're not alone 🙂
