Hi everyone
I have been suffering from a major fear of death. The idea of one day never waking up terrifies me. I get mini panic attacks when I first start thinking about this and then I go into a period of what I call mini depression. It usually dose away eventually but I believe it is brought on with stress and anger.
I also get extremely stressed when something doesn't go to plan or is outside the usual routine. i have no Idea how to deal with this anxiety. It get's to the point where I actually start crying. Sometimes it is over the stupid reasons for example, going on a walk, Doing something I don't want to do. I have told my parents about this and they usually brush it off or just say I am being unreasonable. I have mentioned anxiety to them before and they said it is just teenage hormones. I do agree with them but I also believe it is something more.
When I first started high school, I started getting bad anxiety and stress. After I lost most of my friends I went into a depression. I have never told anyone about this as I usually keep things to myself. by the end of the year I found friends and I was happy. by this year I have severe anxiety because of school and the idea's of death. my only escape from this is when I am with my friends. I spent a lot of time online because of this and my parents just say I am addicted. Maybe I am but A lot of people don't realise it is a coping method for me. I was never an introvert but after years of bullying, teasing, stress and anxiety I keep to myself.
Can anyone help me and maybe suggest how I can cope with all of this.
