I don't know how to explain how things have been. I did have one week in late September where I was so energised with something in my life that I felt well. I went away for a night with my husband and that afternoon and night were magical. I've had some copeable days but mostly the days have been either scary or tears. Because this depression is so very unpredictable I find it hard to trust my moods; ie today my mood isn't that bad but I'm half expecting it to dip or to go scary on me. My fear? that I'll go down to a level that's so awful, where I've been before. I have no reason to expect that. I saw my GP recently. She told me that my meds could not be altered. If I went down and she referred to me to a psychiatrist they would assess that and decide. If she was to ask advice on meds it would be unlikely they would be altered. Usually it's only anti psychotics that are changed. In other words you have to be down there before you get help.
The good thing is she has referred me for a mindulness course although it's likely to be next 6 moths any way before that happens.
I'm afraid I'm not able to help other people just now though I do care for everyone on here.
I'm not looking for answers. There aren't any. I plod on. What else can I do?
Helen x
