A bit about me, where do I start?

[Idunno25]

My first time posting and actually coming to terms with the fact I have anxiety and possibly mild depression.

I know ive had anxiety for some time now quite a few years actually, But today was a point where I knew I needed tp get help. I have 4 yr old twins and spent the day just wanting to sleep, I didn't want to play with these gorgeous loving little boys of mine.

i avoid all situations I know will be hard to handle, taking my kids shopping, driving in peak hour or places im not familiar, social situations, the gym at peak hours, etc. I also think the worst is going to happen all the time.. its exausting.

I'm just a shell of the funny, easy going, quirky person i used to be, I have no idea who I have become, i find it really difficult to make/keep friends and I care so much about what everyone thinks of me, I never used to care about this!

Can I go back to being the person I once was? How do parents with young children see someone to manage their anxiety? My children arent in kinder or child care, and I have very little family support.

I also have no idea how to tell my family, I'm ashamed because I've always had to be the strong one out of my siblings and in my relationship with my partner as he has suffered ongoing depression.

[white knight]

Hi idunno, welcome

No wonder you are exhausted. Twins at that age esp boys are exhausting and I would shy away from shopping also.

I just think you are being harsh on yourself.

You can stop being the tough resilient sibling. Time to put charity into your own home.

Those times you have your twins asleep...cherish those times and carry out relaxation exercises. Below will hive you ideas. Google

Topic: how I eliminated anxiety- beyondblue

Topic: the balance of your life- beyondblue

All the best

Tony WK

[something_missing]

hi ya idunno. wecome to the site. i have only been on this site for about a week but i am already feeling better from the support and beinning able to talk an express my feelings.read your post and thought i was reading about myself. i never used to worry what people thought about me ,then that changed and i did ,which put a brake on what i would do or say. only since my break up 2 yrs ago have i realised that u have to do what u need to do .you are the important person and if people dont approve of what you do . guess what its not there life. and NO the worst is not going to happen all the time. after all you do have two gorgeous boys. getting on this site is a GREATstart everyone on this site is proud of you. AND yes YOU can go back to that funny easy going quirky person you used to be.you have nothing to be ashamed about and perhaps it is about time your family was strong for you. go get the help you need[i know easier said than done] .you deserve to go back to your old self. remember life is great and keep smiling.hope this helps a bit [would put smiley face on but dont know how]

[something_missing]

hello . hope this finds u in a happy mood without to much stress. when u go out without ur boys do u still find those situations hard to handle. also when u are worrying about what everyone else is thinking about you that is a lot of negitive energy that you could be using in a positive way somewere else. i have realised it is pointless thinking like that when you have no control over the person you may be thinking about.i catch myself thinking like that many times a day and realise it is stupid cause you can bet your bottom dollar their not thinking about you.iknow it is hard to do but the more i catch myself doing it ,the quickier i stop. sorry to hear ur partner has issues as well ,this would be putting more strain on u. white knight has some good advice, iam here tooffer you my support . i find being on this site has helped me and brought me out of my closed in world a lot .hope this brightens your day ,life is great & keep on smiling