Welcome to the forum and thanks for starting this thread.
This is a friendly , supportive and non judgmental place where you can share as much or little as you like.
There are many interesting threads about anxiety that may interest you and feel free to use your thread to ask questions and share information.
Once again welcome,
I'm sorry that you have struggled for 40 years because sometimes we tend to believe we are coping as best as we can try to handle any situation that confronts us, but in fact it all begins to mount up, leaving us with little or no way to be able to handle this anxiety.
When you read the many threads/posts there will be some that you feel familiar with and relates to how you are feeling, but remember that treatment is the same in a holistic approach, but individually, you have your own needs which will need to be treated by themselves and the situation you are trying to cope with.
Really hope to hear back from you.
Thank you for your kind words I posted my story in PTSD & Trauma.
It's not what defines me as a person but it is a happiness block that I have never been able to overcome.
There are people far worse off than me which makes the guilt stronger.
On good days I do have a sense of humour I'm definitely a duck gliding along paddling like crazy underneath.