Hi Kasangel, welcome to the site and from you've told us it's been a real struggle.
Your doctor has suggested for you to withdraw and go into detox which is great advice, however, it will only work if that's what you want to do because it's not easy to handle if that's against your will.
PAWS (Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome) I would think would be unbearable, but your doctor may or may not want to provide you with some medication to ease this pain, and I'm sure that your personality would be struggling to cause the OCPD.
At the moment imagine yourself at a crossroad, you're being pulled in at least 2 positions, received some helpful directions from those who know, but it's you who has to get to where you want to be, but you need help, you can't expect to do this on your own because it's a massive effort.
I'm interested to know who else is helping you because it's an enormous job for you to do by yourself (bar your doctor).
-You could call Alcoholics Anonymous on 1300 222 222
-Contact a 24 hour Alcohol and Drug Information Services (ADIS) in your State or if you want other places then please get back to me.
I am truly sorry for what you are going through, addiction isn't easy to stop in any circumstances.
Best wishes.
Geoff.
