Welcome to the forums Sadandlonelyalot.
We know how tough it can be to post here for the first time, so thank you for being so open and honest about what you've been going through. We're incredibly sorry to hear how low you've been feeling, and understand that having been a witness to two people losing their lives must be such a painful experience. It sounds like the ptsd and depression this has caused has left you in a really dark place, but please know that you don't have to cope with all of this on your own- you're not alone in this. Our community is here to help offer as much support, advice and convcersation as you need during this difficult time, and we are also reaching out to you privately via email to check in and offer some extra support.
Can we ask if you are currently receiving any mental health support through this? You've shown a lot of strength in being proactive and taking some time away from work to focus on your recovery, and we want to ensure you that extra support is always available to you. If you'd like any help in discussing your options for other kinds of support, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. The kind counsellors are available to you anytime, 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or also through Webchat (1pm-12am AEST) at:
www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport
We would also really encourage you to our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) and the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467), who are here for you anytime of the day or night during overwhelming moments. Please know that they are here to talk these thoughts and feelings through as often as you need whenever things are feeling like too much to cope with.
We hope that you can find some solace here in the kind and supportive words from our community, and feel a little less alone through this. Please also feel welcome to continue updating us here on your thread with whatever you are thinking and feeling, whenever you are ready- we're all here for you.
