Hello Receccaann,
What a beautiful connection you made while in Australia! It's painful to leave someone you love behind, and the questions that arise in your mind as you try to process your feelings will leave you feeling uncertain about your decision.
But the thing is, there is no right decision. Heartbreak is a part of life, everyone goes through it at some point. It certainly sounds like the two of you properly thought this over. So perhaps it's time to trust that decision you made and ride out the heartbreak. I know this is easier said that than done, but I'm basing this on your own admission that continuing the relationship will lead to more pain for both of you. Breakups are always hard and it's normal to get desperate and wish for ways to make the relationship work. But in reality, we can't change the circumstances or the probable outcomes. That is life.
Try distracting yourself with hobbies during this period, and when you feel up to it (even if it's months later), start meeting new people. Months down the road, you may make another beautiful connection and this time, one that could last in the long-term. Hang in there.
Take care,
Emmen
