Hi there . Let me start by saying this is amazing and thank you for listening.
i am 32 my partner 70. She is a trans woman I am a woman , she has been married twice before and has three children to both wife’s I have taken on a sum what codependency on her. We have been together 2 years and living together 1 year . I was a binge drinker and she is a chain smoker ,she was always against me drinking so I gave it up 4 months ago and she still smokes , she is still set in her ways. She is very kind and caring but is getting too old to do anything at all now! I started seeing a psychotherapist and tomorrow is my fourth session at $150 per session and honestly don’t think she can help. I am just living for her and not with her . I am stuck and can’t find my own path , and am only happy when I get attention off her , nothing else is beautiful unless she is with me and laughing . So deep down I need to go and search the world but I don’t want to leave her. I need help in leaving. How do I go about this ? I have another place I have sorted. I just can’t bring myself to leave her , I love her so much but it hurts to be here and anxiety and depression has set in
