Hi There
I don't know where to begin but being on here is a start
You see I will start with the present and work back
Last week was a year since my dad passed away.
It's been 20 years since my mum passed away
and I lost my first daughter to SIDS 17 years ago.
I understand everyone has loss in life.
I got through when I lost my mum when I was 28.
I got through when I lost my baby girl when she was 13 days old.
Losing my dad was so hard. It was a hard situation after he died and my brothers and sisters don't communicate anymore with me.
My dads partner never liked me, and made that clear after he passed away.
My dad wasn't perfect but I could always talk to him without judgement.
I do feel like I'm by myself now. With no one to talk to as I have previously spoken the extended friends and family. I feel that they must be sick of hearing the same thing from me over and over.
I suffer from depression and also have been to counselling.
I currently have a partner who has his own addictions and issues and can't deal with mine, so I am feeling completely cut off.
I can't get off the couch today and have a weight issue. I want to be healthier and want a healthier mind.
I don't know if this makes any sense but this is my little outlet to let out how I feel.
I really don't have anyone else to discuss this with, without feeling judged.
Thank you for listening to me
Lou
