Hi Anotherone, welcome here
Like all grieving experiences, allow yourself time for healing. Reflect sure, but dont dwell on nor blame yourself. That is counter productive to recovery.
Other threads that will help are (use search)
Making sense of grief
The grief of separation
Grief- dealing with it
Good luck. Would love to know how you get on in 2015
No nothing's helping. But one thing definitely doesn't help me and that's drinking! It makes me more emotional and more upset. I try not to drink much so I don't feel worse. I recently had surgery because I had appendicitis last week so I'm also struggling to get better and just recover physically and emotionally. I feel like life's just kicked me down and I'm trying so hard to get it on track. I've had offers from guys but I think I just need time. I'm not interested in anyone else.