Hi there Confirmed08 - Wow your post brought back very strong emotions within me as exactly the same thing happened to me a few years ago. I'd like to share it with you as I too felt I would never recover.
From the moment I first saw her, she was my Miss Perfect. I worked up the courage to ask her out and it went on from there - four years of bliss, with her living together with me.
Then I started to sense she was looking for more - she had travelled widely and mentioned that maybe she was getting just a bit bored with where we were living. The alarm bells went off and I shouted her to a range of fairly adventurous holidays but I still sensed my feelings towards her were not reciprocated as strongly.
Then her Ex came out from England as part of a fake worldwide trip and she fall head over heels with him again and went back to England with him. The affair with him didn't last at all but that's not the point.
I was completely wrecked and thought about her constantly over weeks and weeks. Yes we did catch up as she had to pick up her piano from my place, but that only made it worse.
I wrote a 'letter of closure' as suggested by a friend and that helped but only a little bit.
What helped the most was getting as active with my work, social and sporting life as I could just to keep my mind off her. Of course I told her I would never stop loving her, but was careful not to put pressure on her as trying the guilt trip rarely works.
What did work? Just time. After about 4-5mths the pain subsided quite a lot as I got on with my life. I did go o ut with a couple of girls but only casually.
Then about two years later I met someone who was better than my ex girlfriend in every way. Introduced by a friend, she is gorgeous, independant and completes me. Oh yes, and also my wife, as we got married after five years (I wanted to make sure this time!)
I met my ex girlfriend at a party a year or two ago - she was still looking for Mr Right, and was very interested in my wife. Jealous I think. And I am glad to say the old flame had completely gone out.
The point of all this? Confirmed08 you obviously have lots to offer. Go with the pain you are currently feeling as it is perfectly normal. Just let it roll over you and try to keep busy with other things. Try not to chase her as she most likely won't want that. Keep your self respect intact.
There is every chance Miss Right is not far away and you will look back on this as a period of learning.
All the very best - The Bro
