hello Kobi, don't cancel your date because you never know that he might just be the one for you.
Spouses or partners who cheat are not worth keeping in the marriage/r/ship, it will happen again without doubt, because their eyes are always wandering, so they will make contact without your knowledge and the love will dwindle away.
It's easy to hide your depression but after awhile you will only become too exhausted and sick of trying to conceal it, and eventually there will a small incident that will show someone that something is wrong and then the questions will start, asking you what is wrong.
When you meet a chap you could easily fall straight in love which will put you on cloud 9, that would be terrific for you, so your depression will be put on hold, and once you both get to know each other then you can raise the topic of how you have been feeling, and if this does happen then I would just raise the topic slowly, so that your fear of him leaving you won't happen.
Don't think too far ahead at the moment, take it day by day and let the r/ship develop so that your self esteem will be able to grow.
Remember there is always someone for everybody, but don't be disheartened, because this only means that it's another hurdle for you to overcome.
Good luck and it would be great to hear back from you. Geoff. x
