I still feel like this. As mother's of young ones we often forget about ourselves, about our marriages and our relationships. We are constantly focused on being the homemaker and the mummy and for the male, often the breadwinner and the daddy that we tend to forget we are people as well.
One piece of advice I always get is forget the housework. Your children won't be this age for long however housework will always be there. It took a long time for me to feel guilty for not working, for working, for not doing housework and neglecting everything that didn't revolve around my son.
Is it possible for you to get a babysitter every now and then to enjoy a meal together (even if it is at home by yourselves)?It is really important to stay connected by communicating with each other and this might be a perfect way to do that without having the kids be a constant distraction or stress.
You have taken the right steps by reaching out now and you have taken the right steps by starting antidepressants as well. If you don't feel as if you are ready to see a counsellor, there are plenty of online sources you can access such as Mindspot and E-couch which I too, have found helpful. In saying that, you are in your right to feel overwhelmed and it is a completely normal feeling with one let alone 4.
Keep posting hunni, you have taken the necessary steps thus far but remember you are more than a mum, you are a warrior, a strong woman.
