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Cheating on my husband with an ex online
Last year in August an ex reached out via email as he'd just moved back to Australia. The last time I saw him was 17 years ago. He's married with two kids. We've only chatted via Whatsapp and email for the last 6 months. Early this year I was discussing this online connection with a friend and my husband discovered this. Naturally, he was very upset and we went through a rough patch. But we worked through it and we're getting there.
My problem is that I did not end this online relationship. Instead I got another phone and set up whatsapp on that. I'm just so overwhelmed with guilt as my husband is trying really hard and I'm continuing this on the side.
To make matters worse, this ex has now ceased communication and I'm upset and torn. I felt very alive and flattered with the flirtatious nature of our relationship and now I feel so empty.
My husband deserves better. Why am I doing this to him and myself?
I have beautiful children and a wonderful life. What is wrong with me?
I just keep contacting the ex. I can see he's online and he keeps ignoring me.
This is how our relationship ended 17 years ago. He just cut all ties. Why have I not learned from this? This is affecting all aspects of my life. I'm finding it hard to concentrate at work. I'm getting snappy with the kids. My poor husband doesn't understand why I'm weepy all the time.
It is no use giving you advice on how wrong it is to be in such a relationship, you already know! That isn't the problem. You problem as I understand it, is you haven't been able to shut this ex out of your desire to connect up time and time again.
As that online relationship has included flirting, effectively it is an emotional affair that has no place in a happy marriage.
Why do you do it? My guess is that your life has not included that elements you need to be ultimately happy/ or, you like the excitement such a challenge?
I'm afraid this is a case for a relationship counselor. You can ring Relationships Australia 1300 364277
If you do get into any dispute with your husband here is a thread you can google that might help
Beyondblue topic relationship strife? the peace pipe.
That's because your ex is either cheating on you and his partner with someone else or he's decided the grass isn't greener on the other side
Either way your moral compass is severely lacking, tell your husband about your deceit and give him the opportunity to leave you instead of being played for a fool
Hi AnnRob, thanks for posting your comment.
'Why does your husband deserve better', well there are different reasons why this happens, and I'm not suggesting these do happen, however, something in your marriage has let the candle burn out, that is, maybe you've never taken the time to express your true feelings to your spouse lately, so you have wanted another person, new or old, to explain your situation and who has a listening ear to what you want to say.
Maybe this ex-friend has been caught out by his wife and been told to stop all communication with you, and if he has done this before, 17 years ago, then he's playing with you and probably other ladies as well.
If you want to find the problem in your marriage then you may need with a counsellor because changes may need to be sorted out.
welcome to this forum.
I think that today there are so many opportunities to renew contact with former loves that it is a real temptation .
The thrill of an illict flirtatious relationship is exciting and it can make you one feel very alive. The trouble is it can not end well.
I think you may e doing this because it is taking a risk and you feel like a teenager. I know you love your husband and your children and the guilt you feel shows that you realise it is not something you want to do.
Like grt said, maybe going off line and doing something that you really like with your husband and children. Discover the joy you have for your family.
I understand it is hard for you but you know what you have to do.
Thanks for sharing your story with honesty and feel free to post here as much as you like .
There have been many great pieces of advice in the previous comments so I won't repeat those.
Quirky suggested doing things with family and finding joy in that. I'd like to offer an alternate suggestion, and it comes with a question. You say you have a great marriage, great kids and great life. But you don't mention anything that is just yours. Something that is special to you that is not connected to husband and family. I'm wondering if this re-connection and subsequent flirting felt great because it was yours and yours alone, and that made it special, something just for you to enjoy outside the cocoon of family and marriage. Is it possible that the real driver is a wish for something independent, that gives you an identity not associated with all that you've built. For it can be that over time our sense of who we are as individuals can get lost in defining ourselves only by our relationship to others.
As for continuing it seems the ex has for whatever reason made a decision to cut contact. Perhaps it is time to call a halt to trying to have that reopened, and to reflect on what the reasons for doing this really are.
To find something that is yours that brings you joy and pleasure independent of marriage and family, and helps you build an individual sense of identity without risking all that you value so much might be something to think on.
please let us know how you get on
Thanks for posting your comment. I agree with the comments above on where to get advice.
It appears that you have two problems:
1. a lack of love for your husband or vice versa as Geoff may have suggested; and
2. a sense of social emptiness, along with guilt, from leaving your ex.
One way to find out who your true friends are, and marriage partners are no exception, is to be openly sorry, honest and upfront about what you have done and give him the opportunity to be supportive to you. When you get professional advice as the others have suggested, you could do it together.
I also support Andy's suggestion on finding something that gives you, personally, a sense of accomplishment and fulfillment. It could be a hobby, a type of cooking, gardening, or even starting something new. Like meditation and relaxation - yoga, dancing, the possibilities are endless.
Keep us all posted.
i just cannot believe it, my story is exactly the same. I wonder how can two stories b so similar. My ex contacted me last yr as well, we chatted in WhatsApp. Can’t explain the feeling to anyone it was magic
Then 10 months later he texted that his wife is suspicious and cut all communication. I have a loving husband 3 kids but I can’t see anything. All I m obsessed with is getting back to chatting with him. I contacted him again and he said we can talk but just rarely and that too we are only friends. That moron took me on a ride for all these months now he wants just friends. But I didn’t learn my lesson. I think I m depressed as I can’t stop crying, don’t feel like doing anything and my poor husband is wondering what has suddenly happened to her full of life wife.
Sorry for not responding sooner. I'm still in the same boat and it hurts so much. Apart from that it is so exhausting putting on a brave face. This is such a ridiculous situation though and I'm not sure where to from here.
How are you feeling now?